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Today has been full of ups and downs. I met with the attorney this morning and he informed me that he had to refer me to an attorney in the state my ex lives in. So now it is back to the drawing board. My daughter is coming for a visit tonight. He is only letting her come because he wants to see my son, but at least she is coming. I can't wait to hug her and talk to her. My husband called me and told me he is on his way home, with his paycheck. Things are getting going with the house. I will be ripping out kitcken cabinets next week. I feel like I have so much work to do on myself, but am trying to put the world in order around me first. I know that's not healthy, but what I have always done so I am not sure how to change it.
Putting the world in order around us first to me seems to go with the saying Fake It Until You Make It. You are doing the best you can so give yourself credit for that. If we are not kind to ourselves, who esle will be? I know I feel better when the world around me seems in order and you are the one doing the action. Maybe that is working on your inner you? Babysteps and Keeping It Simple come to mind to me now. Oh and yes, those hugs are so healing. I hug my A daughter and tell her I love her whenever I can. Enjoy the visit and be kind to you. You are doing the best you can now and sometimes we don't see all the progress we have made. your friend in recovery, cdb xoxox (((((powerless))))