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Something in this morning's meeting reminded me of an expression I picked up along the way & clung close to my heart always. I have been called an old soul, born with a sense of an ability to listen & be empathetic & even transmute other's pain, picking up on their emotions almost instantly.
I've always had a spiritual sense of knowing myself & listening to God, well I could hear God ~ was not always so obedient however. When I did not listen to that intuition, things did't run so smoothly. When I do follow the guidance, I am never steered wrong. This has allowed me to develop a sense of being able to trust God, truly. I may drag my feet & complain at times, not want to get up & do what I know I have to.
One thing about aging, I am slowing down & not so wrecklessly willing to thrash into experiences, staying cozily in the pan & avoiding the fire for a change! This is huge progress for me. With this new journey of self-love I have begun recently, I am feeling grounded & like I am flying simultaneously, I guess all this forgiveness work is paying off ~ I am shedding layers of my onion & discovering what the diamond shining brightly is to behold inside.
I am more in touch with my soul than my body, When I was anorexic, I thought I was fat... now that I have gained weight, I don't feel so bad or irritable inside myself. Doesn't mean I don't realize that the chronic & physical pain I am in & my physical state is a reflection of what is going on inside of me. Oh, I know it is. But I truly do know what I take with me is my consciousness, my soul, that the body is merely my vehicle. We are molecularly one biochemical reaction after another. Truly I am a spiritual being in chemical clothing.
I do want to release all of the negativity that I have but also realize once that happens, molecularly nothing will be holding me together... and I will get to dissipate into that LIGHT & move beyond this realm. I look forward to that day, as for now I know I am exactly where God wants me to be.
Love, -Kitty of Light
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
So glad that you are seeing your progress. You have always been someone that I look forward to hearing from. When you share your insights I can relate it to me, and carry that with me. So glad that you are peeling your onion
Much Love,
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"Today's problems can not be solved if we still think the way we did when we created them" -Albert Einstein
(((((((((((((kitty))))))))))))))) i just LOVE your stuff------that was BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! i am gonna copy this to my "keepers" file.................love n hugs, me
Nice post. You are so in tune to your soul, body and mind. MY accupuncturist explained how accupuncture helps release anger etc. from the cells in our body where it is stored. It also does other things too of course. You probably know that and unfortunately alot of us cannot afford it. A bad accupuncturist can also make us worse. Our blue cross covers it now for pain and I did find truth in it helping to lesson my anger/anxiety and make me more calm and peaceful. It would be nice if you could find a way to get some accupuncture. Just a thought. your friend in recovery, cdb
Thanks! this line made me think of my A and have compassion for those medical health issues she has faced. It's always something w/ her, something always is broke and/or sick. I know that she does have a lot of inner pain, mentally as well. This helped me relate.
"Doesn't mean I don't realize that the chronic & physical pain I am in & my physical state is a reflection of what is going on inside of me"
Bob
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You are a perfect child of God and God and I love you just the way you are! (added by me...in that special alanon way)
