The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
My husband is now home for rehab. I am having such mixed emotions. Just can't even look at him and, not sure how I feel. I realize the road ahead is a very delicate one. Many changes have taken place within me. Trying to focus what is best for me has become cloudy. Trying to put the needs and wants of my children is where I am focused. With in this thinking my needs must come second to theirs. so right now my emotions are every where...Do I even want him here? Do I even like him any more, let alone love him??
So I am trying so hard to take it "one day at a time", it is not an easy task. I am praying so hard for the wisdom to make the right choice.
My knowledge of this disease has me thinkin there is no way he is going to stay clean. My alanon has helped me understand that I can not control this factor. Working on controlling my emotional well being is where I am trying to be right now. It is such a difficult task, for I am mentally wipped out.
~Prayer for Today~
Lord make me an instrument of Thy peace. Where there is hatred, let me sow love: Where there is injury, pardon : Where there is doubt, faith: Where there is depair, hope: Where there is darkness, light: And where there is sadness: joy.
