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I haven't been on the board to much lately. But tonight as i went to bed something made me get up and write this. Its all good. I have been online a little over a year now. When I first came I was mad at the world. Why did I have to pick a drunk to fall in love with. Why couldn't I help him. If I was a good wife he wouldn't be drinking. I had so many crazy thoughts in my head. Back them they were all real to me not carzy. Most of all no HP. If there was a god because I didn't think there was he sucked. Well a year later. Life is good. I'm back to me again. I'm Happy. I'm the mom I always wanted to be. I tell my A what is bothering me. I don't walk on eggshells in my house anymore. I have found my HP. It dosen't have to be God and it can change over time. For me it started as my Grandmother. I have rules in my house and if they are broken there are actions I will take. Most of all I'm OK with that. I'm not sure If all of this has happen for being on this site. Or if it is because My A has taken to being sober. Will be one year sober Feb7th. But A large part is because of this site. I have found myself again. I'm Proud of myself again.
Not sure where I'm going with this. I just wanted to let all the new people out their know. Alanon can work if you work it. I never really did all the steps but I did read lots and lots of posts. I did post my feelings and let things out. Give it a try. Things can and will get better.
Thanks for the uplifting post! I do remember when you were seeking out your Higher Power or wondering what an HP even was. Wow, a year has passed already! Time really flies. I am so happy your life has become better and that your husband has been able to remain sober for so long. My daughter is doing really well too! It does make a big difference and helps me to remain hopeful. Most of all, it sure helps to focus on us doesn't it? I just love the calm and serenity I have discovered in my life since alanon. My daughter and I have such a good relationship now and she is back to her too. I bet she would say the same about me because the disease of alcoholism made me someone she didn't know either. It is a family disease after all. Thanks for posting such great news! Miracles do happen and are in progress all the time. cdb :) xoxoxoxox
Hi Nikkilou I was wondering if you were okay because you hadn't posted for a long time. I am glad your absence was because of good things happening in your life. It is great that everything is going along smoothly and you have progressed so far in your recovery. I too can say al-anon has changed me and I haven't forgotten that you were one of the very first people to reach out and welcome me when I was down. Thankyou for such a positive post and for being there for me when I needed it most. Luv Leo x
