The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
We have a huge county event going on Thursday and Friday, and I volunteered to captain a section of my county. I am starting to feel the stress hit me. I don't live in that part of the county, I don't know the resources, and as I keep trying to find them, I am finding there aren't any. I have been given some information on resources from those who have been in a time of need in that part of the county, but I keep wondering is it enough?
I feel like I am letting down my community and my fellow team members, by not knowing what I am doing. I am feaking out.
I know a huge part of my freaking out is with between the flu, sick kids, sick hubby ( the flu), and trainings, I have not been to a meeting for two weeks. OMG I am so going to blow my top. I tried to make a meeting Monday night here, but I came in at 7:30pm my time, and missed all of it.
If anyone wonders if this program truly works, it does, I have my bad days, but serenity is always within my grasp. I feel like I lost my Serenity, just like Jennifer, but I gave mine away. I can work a good program, but I need to go into the shop (meetings) to get my maintenance taken care of, and since I haven't been able to I am starting to break down. I have picked up the phone, and trust me it helps, but I need more.
I am praying that Tuesday will be here soon. All my volunteer stuff will be done for the moment, and I can go to a meeting and get my oil changed.
Thanks for listening, I needed to blow some steam before I completly lost my mind.
Much Love,
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"Today's problems can not be solved if we still think the way we did when we created them" -Albert Einstein
If I find extra I'll send it! We are both doing the best we can under the circumstances, I'm practicing being thankful I have made it this far until my peacefulness comes back. Good Luck!
What you have done by posting is taking care of you. Now some steam got out and you can re-read what you put and see things in a new perspective. The top should not pop off now. Way to post, reach out and take care of you! ((((((((Dolphin)))))) Wishing you luck too. cdb :)
