The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Over the holidays during my alone time I decided to do some nice things for myself. I didn't call them resolutions because that sounds like work, these are not work just refocus and care for me. So it is the New take care of me thing I guess.
I went back to work on the friend's house today ... that was a commitment to feel honest labor and get my body moving. Not to mention help a friend, get out of the house, and see the satisfaction of a job well done .. ~laugh~ or at least done. Although now we have decided to renovate a few more things so the work continues.
Set up an appointment with a new therapist today, just for me since I gave up on the couple's thing when I realised my husband is not ready to be honest with one, and I do not want to be in the position of a tattletale.
Right next door to his office is the office where I need to choose a General Practioner so BONUS not too much traveling. Both are just down the street from work.
A package I requested arrived in the mail with info on volunteering for the Literacy Council .. helping people learn to read and communicate. Only speed bump on that is the way I had thought to volunteer will be too hard, since it moved across town (not the best area during the times they hold volunteer hours) and I do not drive. So instead I will take a few classes and work one on one with someone at a more convenient location and times.
Trying to keep my motivation up, and not sink into the depression my husband is in right now, or give up my energy trying to pull him out of it. He does not seem to be using which is great but coming home from work on Wed morning and not leaving the couch cept to eat and go to the bathroom until Sun night to go back to work is not a happy life for either of us. I am hoping that by meeting with this therapist regularly I can find a balance between the detaching and not enabling of Al Anon that works well for me, and the motivation and support a bipolar spouse sometimes needs. It's a fine line and I am gonna need help keeping my balance, from all the sources available.
I've made a point of praying daily, which I had been slacking on. Reading affirmations, and not always reaching meditation but at least for a little quiet thinking time.
My thanks go out to you all for helping me get back on track!