Has anyone heard that song called "Take The Wheel"? It's a country song, don't know who sings it, about a woman letting her "higher power" take on her burden. It's really wonderful. Anyway, just wanted to share some thoughts on my giving up my own "wheel". It's so hard to give it up isn't it? We are all so desperate to keep it all together when our A's do nothing but sabotage our happiness. I was talking to my husband on the phone from rehab, he is really cleaning out some cobwebs. He's at the point where he's remembering all the crappy things he's done and apologizing. I came to the realization I'm not mad anymore. I told him my anger walked out the door with him when he left for rehab last week. I used to be angry, hurt, broken down, but now, he has taken the first step to a better life and so have I. He wants to much to come home, to see me and the kids. I told him that it was all up to him. No one is holding him there, I miss him, I am here, but he needs to do what is best for his recovery, whether it is there or here. I said his recovery is HIS OWN, not mine. I am NOT responsible for that decision, all I can say is when he decides to come home, we will be waiting with open arms. I'm still working on what I'll do when he does come home.....how not to stress over how many meetings he'll go to. But this forum will be of great help. I still need to look into meetings in my area, there are only two and they are too late at night for my kids (husband works nights). I'll call the 800 number too. Feeling better today!