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I saw my mom yesterday. It was really good. I had some pics of my wedding and a few others remade and a few copies made of them. I gave her some copies and she was really happy. She's so small and frail though, needs some weight on her bones, but other than that she's okay. I'm just really shocked myself to feel so, I guess its happy and unstressed. I still have some issues to deal with and issues that I need to find but I don't feel like I do. I feel like I'm on top of the world, no, the universe. I almost feel like I don't have a care in the world now. I'm shocked, I never thought I'd feel this way..... ever! I thought I was surely doomed to walk the Earth in a state of pain and agony and some happiness, but I'm not. This is huge for me, I mean huge!! If this has done for me, what it has, I wonder how momma feels!?! Oh, man, this is just cool! I'm happy, genuinely happy. I could cry, but not sad or angry tears, or tears of loneliness, real tears of happiness. Okay, I know I'm babbling on and on, but I'm in a state of disbelief! HA, I would've never thought I'd be restored but this is only the beginning. If it gets much better than what its at now, I just might need ritalin!!!! My next move is to post this message and shout it from the rooftops, but shouting it might be a bit overdoing it!
Finally my sun has come out, I don't have to wait 'til tomorrow!!
I am so happy for you -I can only imagine how you felt. Thank You so much for sharing this. You said you shared with her your photos, maybe you could do some journaling on this -write this down for you and place it away -in a God Box or a Letter Box if you haven't already for later reflection on this important memory? Lots of well wishes, Tracey
((((((raging))))))))))) im so happy for you that you overcame this huge hurdle that has been bothering you. im glad you can feel the weight lifted from your shoulders. way to go. i hope this is a new beginning of a wonderful relationship for you and your mom. best of luck to you and tc. enjoy this moment and ramble as much as you want and shout it from every roof top. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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