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My post last night was crazy...I felt crazy.I`m feeling better tonight,calmer anyway. My A is still makeing me feel insane though..sometimes I wonder if it is all my fault.After my post last night I calmed down and went to bed.First thing in the morning the phone is ringing..its him.Being very nice,wanting to come to the house and get his dog and talk.I agree,I figure why fight over the dog he will take good care of her,after all I have all 4 of our kids and he has nothing.He comes over and stays all day,I mean I could not get rid of him.He says he understands how I feel about the dog and he wants to leave her with us for protection.I tell him Thank you and we ended our day with a kiss and he said he loved me.I need to go to my Moms house to switch cars with her,long story but I had her car and she had mine.I drive up there which takes about 50 minutes..he calls 4 times..where are you? and ended each call with I love you.I spend some time at my Moms and then come home.Well I walk in and he has taken the dog and all her stuff THAT I PAYED FOR.And I found out from my daughter that he lied to me yesterday about something very important.I called him to tell him that I thought what he did was low.I was calm,didn`t holler or get angry just stated a fact.Well he screamed at me called me a liar and a c**t.I told him that we didn`t live together anymore and I didn`t have to put up with that kind of language and said i would talk to him another day and hung up.he called me back 20 minutes later and apologized..then started screaming again..I hung up and he`s called 2 more times but I have aol call alert and just hit ignore call.
Sorry it`s so long just wanted to vent and tell everyone how much I appreciate the site and everyones comments..I`m so glad i found this website. thank you for all your help:)
OH allison the disease makes them so crazy. No trying to rationalize insanity hon.
If I were you I would call block him for awhile. Here we just push star 60 and follow he directions. Your phone co. can tell ya how. Would be changing my locks too.
For me, really knowing the disease and my A were separate changed my life.
Sadly now the disease has taken over completely.
please take care of you and your kids. I know you won't allow the disease to make you insane anymore. Don't allow it!! When it is yelling at you or whatever, think, it is the disease talking, and walk away, hang up.
Find yourself some anti stressors, things that will make you happy and your kids happy. Take a long break from the aism. hugs, love,debilyn
