Thank you all so much for being here. My life is a lot better today than it was for years and years, and it is because of the experience, strength, hope, and love I have found in Alanon.

I think I am going in and out of denial. I want to let go of my life, of my obsessions, of my anxiety, but I still think I can get control. Part of me still believes that everyone has to make the choices I have made, that other people think the way I do. Then I get so disappointed when they do not act as I would have them act! My expectations are out there for them, as they are for me. I am less rigid then I used to be, but I still struggle to let go of control and to truly grant my hp my life.
My life is a lot less a life of drama then it used to be, and am I ever grateful! When the drama begins, it is in my own mind - setting myself up for more obsessing, and then, of course, depression.
Thank you all for being here. I don't know if any of this has made any sense, but I wanted to put something out there for my program tonight. Writing helps.
Blessings to you all,
mebjk