It is hard to believe that it is 2006. 2005 was a very difficult year. In many ways, I was sick and needed surgery, my husband ( an alcoholic ) and I seperated twice, and my job has become more stressful than ever. I can say that in 2005 I began finding myself. In July I found this site and began working on me thru the ALANON steps. I started going to meetings, working on me and reading more than ever about a disease that had taken control of me and my family. I learned, that I have a problem just as my husband does. I am very co-dependent.. I am as addicted to my husband as he is to drinking.
Why else do we continue to love someone who lies to us and continues to hurt us over and over? I use to blame him, just as much as he blamed me for his drinking. Now, I say it is a disease, one that he cant control without help.. Somedays he acknowledges his problem others he is in denial.

My resolution.. I have named 2006 the year of CHANGE.. Not for my husband but for ME. I am going to continue to work on me using all of the tools that I have learned. I am not perfect by no means but I have come so far on this walk, yet have so far to go. For all of you new to this web site and new to ALANON I say.....
KEEP COMING BACK, it works if you work it.. !! Focus on you not on the alcoholic. Try to remember that the 3 C's that we learn in alanon..

You didnt cause it
You cant control it
You cant CURE it.
I use to think that I could but thanks to ALANON I know now that I cant..

For 2006, I will keep taking steps.. Steps that will lead me to serenity.

Thanks to all of you who have given so much to me in 2005.. Please dont stop.. I will need you in 2006 more than ever..

Tammy