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well my mom called and is not coming over tonight. said she wont get back into town till later. im sad about this. i thought id at least get to see someone today. she says she'll come over tomorrow. but i was really looking forward to seeing her. but now its another night of staying up all night then when i can sleep waking up 1000 times. this sucks. i want this holiday to be over already. i had one present to open today from my a's grandmother. a christmas decoration. but its not about the gifts this holiday is supposed to be about spending time with people you love. and i havent even had that. i just want a real hug from someone and for them to hold me.
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stay in the now...dont look forward, dont look back....your life is what you make of it
BELIEVE me - I understand how you feel. I am sitting in the living room with two people who both told me to leave today - these people are the ones who are supposed to love me unconditionally and of course they made another Christmas spectacular. But I feel stronger today than I ever have in my life. I stood up for myself - and its just the first step. I dont need abuse.
I wish I lived closer that we could get together right now and just hang out and vent. I think it would make you and I feel sooo much better.
Thinking of you I didn't spend Xmas with any of my family Mum etc as they all live 1300kms away but you know it was just nice to hear her voice and speak to my Grandmother by phone who is 92 years old. Try and appreciate the little things like the fact that your Mum is still alive and you are able to have her in your life. Hope this helps. Leo x
Well I can definitely relate to putting all the "hope" outside of myself. This year I surrounded myself with food books and started coming to this program. That helped a lot. I know that the holidays are loaded for me and for once I am not submerged in it.
i spent xmas alone too....but you know what i did??? i did not fight it/ did not curse it/ i made "friends with it" i bought me a couple of fun things....i treated me to some GR8 food....bubble baths..pampering....GR8 movies......i took the good and i left the bad...i was NOT going to have a bad time....i had me with me!!!! so ok?? if i am to be alone, its OK!!! coz i am OK with me.......i lovingly accepted it and made the best of it and i had a nice xmas.........NONresisting conditions is bringing me either change or peace...either way, i win......rosie
