Merry Christmas everyone.

I just like to say thank you to all that have responded to my post when I've been very sad or angry. Your responses have been so, so helpful to me.  Sometimes I feel bad because I don't respond to the post but I haven't gotten myself together as of yet so giving words of encouragement to others is almost impossible for me when I feel low mysef most of the time. Please God things will be better in the new year.

A short update on my affairs. My daughter is still drinking and smoking pot but I try to keep reminding myself that the kids are well looked after. I feel so bad for her at times especially right now it must be awfully hard to get through this time of year not having your children with you but it was her own doing.  We'll have them Christmas day and Boxing day which I'm looking forward to.

As for my cancer levels being up, they haven't found nothing yet. I have to go for a kidney test next month, now the doctor says my kidneys arn't working right. After that all that left to check is my chest which I think is where the problem is but please God I'm going to try to quit smoking after Christmas if I can find some peace of mind.

Well, tomorrow night is Christmas Eve, my husband has to work so I'll be alone.  I was going to ask my daughter to come over but it would probably be hard for her, so many memories last year this time they were all here as a family, this year she's alone.  But, you know what...I'm going to church.  I haven't been there for years only if there was a wedding or funeral. I just feel a need to go. So I'm going to get my turkey ready for the children coming then I'm going to church.

To finish up I would like to say I hope you all have a Very Merry and Peaceful Christmas and and feel great hope for the New Year.

Again Thank you.

Sandy (Linda)