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I am a bit overwhelmed. I am to go to Al-anon meetings, therapy and bipolar support groups. I feel like I am doing too much and not sure which part of me and my problems to focus on. Arrrggghhhhh!!! Anybody else going through this?
I have been there and everything did seem frantic at first, but after about 2 weeks my path started to sort of unfold in front of me. I was crazy in the beginning of my journey, I didn't even know if anything was helping. At my f2f meetings people kept saying, "keep coming back," and I did, almost involuntarily. Little by little I just knew what to do and where to go, and what to work on when...
I do know that the Bipolar support group is important to help with the disorder and get help with that aspect of your life. They can't understand living with an addict. Just as your alanon group can't completely understand the entirety of your disorder. Therapy may be a good place to combine both of them. Is you therapist familiar with addiction? That would be a good focal point to keep you focused. If your bipolar isn't under control, you can't effectively manage anything else in your life. The chaos from living with an addict can increase the severity of your mood swings. It's overwhelming, but important to keep up both groups and therapy. Things will even out soon. It will get better. Keep coming back. you can bounce things off of us when you need to. Again, it will get better. Things WILL balance out. Glad you're here
I've felt the same way. Not sure what area to work on first. Do I work on all of them together at the same time? Is there room in my brain to take it all in? I'm an adult child of alcholics, my husband is a cocaine addict and I am addicted to pain killers. Yikes that's quite a handful if I do say so myself.
On top of that I have 5 children who all demand my attention in one way or another 24/7. Three of the 5 are under 4 years old. It's so hard to find a quiet moment for myself. I would love to be able to dedicate a full hour a day to *my* recovery, but it's next to impossible.
I've found that keeping myself sober needs to be my top priority. So for me, for now......NA and my recovery in that area has to come first.
In trying to decide how to proceed in your recovery, try to think on some of the slogans such as How important is it? First things first. Easy does it. And to me most important of all: One day at a time.
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Kathy S --
~*I trust my Higher Power that I am exactly where I am supposed to be in my life today.*~
