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Please, please, bring recovery to my son. See my tears, listen to my heart, I'm on knee's once again hear my cry (((((((((((I LOVE My SON)))))))))))) How long must I wait? Please listen to your servents prayers. I'm not asking for money, diamonds, or comforts for myself all I want for CHRISTMAS is my son's health.
My son was regressed this morning, scared, crying, a little child stage. I know this stage, I'm familiar with Meth. before things got out of hand I had to call for help. Thank goodness I'm well known in the community as a leader. I made that painful call to the police. I'm grateful because the police here in my town handle him with kid gloves every time they pick him up. Police in other towns alway's seem to have good reason in their opinion to bit him up to a pulp. The police comes and Michael cries "please mommy don't let them hurt me, are they going to hurt me?" I didn't do anything Mom please don't send me away. Are you coming with me Mommy? I love you Mom, Please Mommy come with me I don't want to be alone, I'm so scared. Are you sure they won't hurt me. ((((((((((((((Help Me Mommy)))))))))))))(((((((((((Help Me )))))))))))))
And I do my best to reassure him but I can't hold back the tears. As I cry. You'll be okay son don't worry everything is going to be okay. I love you too. As the police hand cuff him put him in the back sit of the police car and I see him through the car window still saying "Please Mom, Please help me Mom". And I look into the sadness, pain and confusion in his eyes as the police car drives away.
Michael is my son, my one and only son. He is an addict.
To all those who read my posting this is also a petition for you to please pray for my son.
Please be with all of our families this Christmas season no matter what their addiction. Help them to help themselves. Help us to live One Day At A Time with our hearts filled with hope, while still being realistic about addiction. Help us to work on our character defects and accept the defects of others. Help us to not take failures or comments personally and realize that in your time all will be well, if not in this life time, the next. Be with us and guide us to make well thought decisions and to not be filled with hatred. Release all of our negative energy, so that the positive things in life have room to fill our lives. Keep us all safe in our Holiday travels and let us enjoy every minute of our time together with family, even the impaired. Don't let them spoil our holiday. Keep the focus on us and our growth in our great program, Amen
josey
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Julianne - It's best to move on. You cannot look back in anger in life. It's too short
I don't know a thing about crystal Meth, other than it is so dangerous.
I do know young people who have survived the addiction, and are on the other side, teaching their story, offering similar people their hands...
Being a mother is hard too, we feel so much responsibility for them.
Thank God you are here with alanon friends. I will cry with you, I will pray with you, I will try to give you strength and peace amid the chaos...
Do your best to let God do his work for your son. I pray beside you, and beside all our friends here who are praying too. I hope that God shows you His miracles soon, and if not, I pray that you have understanding to why he is holding off, and strength to keep loving him while you wait.
As I sit here reading your posts...I am crying..I feel the pain you are going through...I am not a mom,nor am I old enough to understand true love..or unconditional love. I am only 17,but omg your son is soo very lucky to have a mom like you...
I will pray for his recovery,"this too shall pass", and I know it may not seem like it will now,but believe me God knows the pain we are in,and blesses us in the smallest ways...
Thanks for sharing your pain with us...I know it is difficult,but I hope it gives you comfort inside to know that we truly care,and are here for you....
Here is a song that is very inspiring I hope you like it...
You gave me time When no one gave me time of day You looked deep inside While the rest of the world looked away You smiled at me When there weren't just friends everywhere You gave me love When nobody gave me a prayer
That's why i call you savior That's why i call you friend 'cause you touched my heart You touched my soul And helped me start all over again That's why i love you jesus That's why i'll always care 'cause you gave me love When nobody gave me a prayer
You gave me laughter After i'd cried all my tears You heard my dreams While the rest of the world just closed its ears I looked in your eyes and i found such tenderness there 'cause you gave me love When nobody gave me a prayer
That's why i call you savior That's why i call you friend 'cause you touched my heart You touched my soul And helped me start all over again And that's why i love you jesus That's why i'll always care 'cause you gave me love When nobody gave me a prayer Yes he gives us love When nobody gives us a prayer...
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My heart goes out to you. I am shedding tears and my throat is constricted at the thought of your pain and the pleas you send. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Meth is a nasty drug. I'm sure you don't need me to tell you, but there is hope. May God Bless you with peace and your son with recovery.
Dear Rosa what a loving Mum you are. Somewhere inside your son is the little boy you gave birth to and the innocence is still there today. I pray that God gives you the strength to cope with your son's addiction and deliver him to care so you can have a break. Luv Leo xx
In our materialistic time of trying to find the perfect gift to buy for all those on your list a heart felt prayer may give more comfort than anything from a store.
May all those in Recovery and those who are still out there, find the strength and courage to find and maintain their recovery. God help us all.
I will pray for you. I can't imagine your pain as a parent, as a wife it's bad enough. I too only had one Christmas wish, it was for my husband to give his heart back to me. In 1999, he proposed and gave me a heart shaped diamond ring, because when he'd ask what I wanted for Christmas that year, all I would say is "your heart". The drinking has progressed, and with it, the anger, violence, etc. that was not there in previous years. It;s hard to realize the man I deeply love is the same one who causes me great pain.
I will pray for you and your son. You are in the right place, and doing the right thing for your son, and it is done out of love. I know it must be very hard for you. How old is your son?