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These are a few lyrics to songs..that well explain my life story...
Pat Benatar
Suffer The Little Children
by Unknown
Sweet melissa, I often pray for you I hope your suffering was brief I hope the angels that watch over all little children Came for you and took you someplace beautiful and sweet Aahh.. Suffer the little children
Dear melissa, I often think of you Everytime I hold my baby in my arms I say a prayer for your mama and daddy too I know they miss you, miss you since you’re gone
Suffer the little children At the hands of evil men No baby dolls, no teddy bears No lullabies for them Every mother’s nightmare Will it ever end Suffer the little children At the hands of evil men
You who done the deed better do some prayin’ too Better hope that god’s forgivin’ like they say Cause somewhere, somebody keeps a list Of the evils that men do An’ your name’s right up there I heard `em say Aahh..
Suffer the little children At the hands of evil men No baby dolls, no teddy bears No lullabies for them Every mother’s nightmare Will it ever end Suffer the little children At the hands of evil men
Pink
Family Portrait
by Unknown
Mama please stop cryin´ I can´t stand the sound Your pain is painful and it´s tearing me down I hear glasses breaking As I sit up in my bed I told Dad you didn´t mean Those nasty things you said You fight about money About me & my brother And this I come home to This is my shelter It ain´t easy, growin´ up in WW3 Never knowin´ what love could be You´ll see, I don´t want love to destroy me Like it has done my family
CHORUS Can we work it out Can we be a family I promise I´ll be better Mommy I´ll do anything Can we work it out Can we be a family I promise I´ll be better Daddy please don´t leave
Daddy please stop yelling I can´t stand the sound Make mama stop cryin´ ´Cause I need you around My mama she loves you No matter what she says is true I know that she hurts you But remember I love you too! I ran away today, ran from the noise Ran away (ran away) Don´t wanna go back to that place But don´t have no choice, no way It ain´t easy, growin´ up in WW3 Never knowin´ what love could be But I´ve seen, I don´t want love to destroy me Like it has done my family
Repeat CHORUS
In our family portrait We look pretty happy Let´s play pretend, let´s act like it Comes naturally I don´t wanna have to split the holidays I don´t want two addresses I don´t want a stepbrother anyway And I don´t want my mom to have to change her last name!
Repeat CHORUS
Mama I´ll be nicer I´ll be so much better I´ll tell my brother I won´t spill the milk at dinner I´ll be so much better I´ll do everything right I´ll be your little girl forever I´ll go to sleep at night Daddy don´t leave... daddy don´t leave
Evanescence
Hello
by Evanescence
Playground school bell rings again rain clouds come to play again has no one told you she's not breathing? hello i'm your mind giving you someone to talk to hello
if i smile and don't believe soon i know i'll wake from this dream don't try to fix me i'm not broken hello i'm the lie living for you so you can hide don't cry
suddenly i know i'm not sleeping hello i'm still here all that's left of yesterday
Linkin Park
Breaking The Habit
by Linkin Park
Memories consume Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again
I don't want to be the one The battles always choose cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I know it's not allright So I'm Breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit Tonight
Clutching my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again I hurt much more Than anytime before I had no options left again
I don't want to be the one The battles always choose cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be allright So I'm Breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit Tonight
I'll paint it on the walls cause I'm the one at fault I'll never fight again And this is how it ends
I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream But now I have some clarity To show you what I mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be allright So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit Tonight
My Chemical Romance
Helena
by Gerard Arthur Way
Long ago Just like the hearse you die to get in again We are so far from you
Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate The lives of everyone you know And what's the worst you take (worst you take) from every heart you break (heart you break) And like the blade you stain (blade you stain) Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say? Things are better if I stay So long and goodnight So long not goodnight
Came a time When every star falls brought you to tears again We are the very hurt you sold And what's the worst you take (worst you take) from every heart you break (heart you break) And like the blade you stain (blade you stain) Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say? Things are better if I stay So long and goodnight So long not goodnight And if you carry on this way Things are better if I stay So long and goodnight So long not goodnight
Can you hear me? Are you near me? Can we pretend to leave and then We'll meet again When both our cars collide?
What's the worst that I can say? Things are better if I stay So long and goodnight So long not goodnight And if you carry on this way Things are better if I stay So long and goodnight So long not goodnight
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~life is like a box of chocolates you never know whatcha gonna get~
Thanks for these, Lauren! Sometime poetry or songs are so much more powerful in capturing the real feelings than all the attempts to explain! They speak so directly to the heart, by-passing that dangerous circuitry known as "figuring things out"! I've spent a lot of useless time trying to "figure things out" when really what I needed to do was just feel!
Pink's song, Family Portrait, reminds me of my home life somewhat. I like to listen to Breaking the Habit by Linkin Park when I'm mad. I understand why these songs touch you heart because they touch my heart too. Keep good lyrics like these and your poems coming. Your posts are always good.
Those songs are some of my favorite and I can listen to them, but there are two songs that are really hard for me to listen to. One is Scars by Papa Roach, I can listen to it, but I can't think of the words and relate them because then I'll be a pile of mush within 3 minutes. The other one, Kelly Clarkson's Because of you. I can't listen to it because I'll bawl my eyes out over it. I'll be just bawling forever if I hear that song, so I avoid it. It beautifully put together and sounds good, but the words are really really powerful. Here's the lyrics to those songs.
Because of You
by Kelly Clarkson
I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did, You fell so hard I've learned the hard way To never let it get that far
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid
I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because you know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid
I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of you I am afraid
Because of you Because of you
Scars
by Papa Roach
[Chorus:] I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut My weakness is that I care too much My scars remind me that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone I'm pissed cause you came around Why don't you just go home Cause you channel all your pain And I can't help to fix myself Your making me insane All I can say is
[Chorus]
I tried to help you once A kiss will only vise I saw you going down But you never realized That your drowning in the water So I offered you my hand Compassions in my nature Tonight is our last dance
[Chorus]
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone You shouldn't ever came around Why don't you just go home? Cause your drowning in the water And I tried to grab your hand And I left my heart open But you didn't understand But you didn't understand You fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
Music is such a powerful thing. I don't bring it up much to my alanon friends because I wasn't sure we were allowed to talk about it, because of the "conference approved literature rule."
Alanis Morrisette got me through the break up with my last alcoholic...2 songs in particular are Bent For You & Sorry to Myself...Many people still identify her as being angry, but she really isn't. I personally think she's brilliant and feel like her music can really speak to many of us.
Bent For You
you're unsure and you're not ready so that must mean I want you you're unavailable and disinterested and to you I look for comfort
a million times in a million ways I will try to change you a million months and a million days I'll try to somehow convince you
I have waited for you and adjusted for you and I'm done I have deferred to you and enabled you and I'm done
you're too young or you're too old or you're simply not inclined you're asleep or you're withholding be that my cue to crave you
several times in several ways I'll try to squeeze love from you several hours and several ways I'll feast on scraps thrown from you
I have bent for you and I've deprived for you and I'm done I have depressed for you and contorted for you and I'm done I have stifled for you and I've compromised for you and I'm done I have silenced for you and sacrificed for you and I'm done
it won't be long before I am reclaimed it won't take long and I'll be on path again it won't be easy for us to disengage I'm at the end of self deprivation stage
you're afraid of every woman afraid of your inner workings you cringe at the thought of living under the same roof as me god and everything
a million times and a million ways I've tried to alter to match you several times every several days I've tried to uncrush on you
For hearing all my doubts so selectively and For continuing my numbing love endlessly For helping you and myself: not even considering For beating myself up and over-functioning To whom do I owe the biggest apology? No one's been crueler than I've been to me For letting you decide if I indeed was desirable For my self-love being so embarassingly conditional for denying myself to somehow make us compatible for trying to fit a rectangle into a hole To whom do I owe the biggest apology? No one's been crueler than I've been to me I'm sorry to myself My apologies begin here before everybody else I'm sorry to myself For treating me worse than I would anybody else For blaming myself for your unhappiness for my impatience when I was perfect where I was Ignoring all the signs that I was not ready, For expecting myself to be where you wanted me to be To whom do I owe the first apology? No one's been crueler than I've been to me And I'm sorry to myself My apologies begin here before everybody else I'm sorry to myself For treating me worse than I would anybody else Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ? Forgetting you or forgetting myself... Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter I would've naturally loved the former For ignoring you: my highest voices For smiling when my strife was all too obvious For being so disassociated from my body, for not letting go when it would've been the kindest thing. To whom do I owe the biggest apology? No one's been crueler than I've been to me I'm sorry to myself My apologies begin here before everybody else I'm sorry to myself For treating me worse than I would anybody else I'm sorry to myself My apologies begin here before everybody else I'm sorry to myself For treating me worse than I would anybody else
