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Nobody can give you freedom. Nobody can give you equality or justice or anything. If you're a man, you take it. --Malcolm X
It does little good to complain about our mates or parents or lovers. We only accentuate our role as victims when we say, "I would be happier if he/she were different." "If he would just get off my back, I would act better." We each have a side, which is loyal to the victim within. Some of us take comfort in acting helpless and being taken care of; some of us relish the power of being catered to; some of us wallow in self-pity. These patterns of thought retard our recovery and put a drag on our relationships. When we decide that we aren't willing to live this way any longer, we are ready to assert our independence.
########ROSIE......oh yeah, i complained about EVERYTHING.....my past/ my whatever was in my life.....my bookeeping busines...my relationships.....my victimization.....my bad karma...my curse!!! really, sick as it sounds, i thought i was cursed....someone told me that when a man sins as greately as my father did, God curses the generation down to 4 or 7??? i forgot, but it shattered me to hear this!!!! like i had to pay for HIS crap???? HIS crime?????? i thought it was true, so i gave up thinking that any God would help me/ guide me, i thought i had drawn a prison sentence/ buring off bad karma for life, and that was IT!!! END of coversation.......so i became more and more bitter....more and more on my pitty party.....more and more resentful!!!! it ate me!!!! FIRST i was horribly wounded/ staggering from the blows, and i gotta burn off HIS karma??????? THAT was the finishing touch on my journey into hatred/resentment to God/Life..............than life just SO broke me down.....beat me down....i gave up!!!! but i didn't know what/where/to whom to give up......but i did GIVE UP!!!!!! after suicide attempt #.. i got into recovery and found OUT that i can stop the so called *curse* by my accepting defeat.....my WILLINGNESS to surrender....my COMITTMENT to changing me/ my beliefs/ my attitudes.....i could break FREE of the *curse*......i later figured it out that the reason that is said, now this is MY take only.......however, i think they got that belief, Bcuz so many messed up familys continue ON the dysfunction!!! its a CHOICE!!!!!! we can break our *curses* ANY time we DECIDE to take responsibility for our lives.......surrender to a HP as we understand it......WORK the program!!!! i am breaking my *curse*....i am dismantelling it piece by piece by TAKING my life back, by GIVING it over to my HP who WANTS me to flourish!!!!!!! i asserted my INdependence by dragging my sick, little ass into recovery!!!!!! so i TAKE my justice by my CHOICE to work on me/ take care of me/ nurture me/ accept me/ love me and than SPREAD it around!!!!!! THANK YOU......ROSIE
Real emancipation can't come at someone else's initiative or as a gift. It can only begin from within, by saying, "I will take my independence." Then we begin to be responsible people because we own it on the inside.Today, I will not wait for others to set me free. I will do what is within my own power to be a free spirit.
######ROSIE......REAL emancipation comes from my CHOOSING it!!!!!! my getting to the basics of loving /caring for/ accepting me!!!!! setting my boundaries......asserting that it IS indeed "my turn now" doing all i can to help my HP, help me.....sow good seed today for my *tomorow good harvest*.......make what changes in me i have to make to be a more healthy/ productive spirit......... TODAY i am going to do what is within ME, to own my power/ take back my life AS i align myself with and cooperate with my HP of my understanding.......
Amen sister... I always hated that census crap, female white - wtf? I AM A HUMAN BEING, HUMAN (or trying to be human).
Ever since I was a little kid, I would hear ppl speak or read excerpts from the Bible & it would say "man" -- well I knew that meant me! Maybe my mind is masculine.
I have honor & integrity... I am a man of my word. I say what I mean, mean what I say & I follow through on my word.
Really, what else do we have?
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
