The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
So, I went to the first night of my "retreat" or so I thought, it is actually a self motivation course, not what I thought at all. Well I did know that we were going to do some self exploration but not to the depth of it. Im staying at the hotel where it is taking place and I was glad to be finished and be able to relax in my room and have the hottest tub ever in pure silence. I had a hard time relaxing during on of the group sessions, I also was hit on the head that I have alot of resentment towards my oldest daughter, her dad cheated and left me when she was 8ms old, I rebounded and that was to my A. Who is now my EX too. But I was able to recognize that I am holding back where she is concerned. WOW, I cried, I love my daughter but due to my anger towards her dad, I blame her. Not even knowing it. This course is all about bettering yourself. You know what I was thinking though while this person was directing information to me. "I get my tools and have my support" with ALANON. I truley believe that we are able to learn all we need to right here with this program.
I am a greatful member of Alanon, I can be me, just me, no "image" no "ego" nothing just me.
I do like me, Im just not sure that I love all of me. I also have agreed that we have choices and no matter what my choice have been or will be, there will always be a gain or a loss. I need to accept either.
Wow, I can relate to your feelings. When I attend Al Anon Conferences, I sometimes get overwhelmed at the amount of information and the self-realizations too. By the end I am exhausted. However, on a positive note, these help me to realize my parts in things and start breaking the denial I may have on some level.
Just know that we love you and keep working it.
love Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
Wow! That is such big stuff you are learning about yourself! Congratulations! You are demonstrating such willingness to accept and forgive yourself. Sometimes the defects in ourselves are not easy to look at and that is why we have been blind to them in the past, but once you become aware of them and are willing to accept them, you can take the action that will correct them. You will find yourself with greater confidence and a better self image, the more of these things you uncover and uproot. I am totally inspired and really thank you for sharing so honestly. Enjoy the rest of your course!
Emmie
PS:I am also smiling because I know somewhere on some farm out there is a big dog coming to self-improvement revelations on his "retreat" too... everyone's growth is thanks to you.... : )
