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Seventh Day Slumber - Caroline From the album Once Upon A Shattered Life
Where do I begin, there’s so much I want to say to make it easier Tomorrows on its way, do you believe I want to take your painful memories I know you want to run away I know that you can’t see tomorrow
Chorus: Caroline let me wipe away your tears and give you life, Make you feel beautiful again Caroline don’t throw it all away I’m here tonight To take away your pain
Yesterday is gone and everything that made you cry has fallen to the ground I’m here to bring you home, I will always take you back you haven’t let me down I know you want to run away I know that you can’t see tomorrow
Chorus:
And when you’re feeling all alone and you can’t go on Remember I am here And when you think you gone to far, I’ll meet you where you are My arms are open wide
Chorus: (2x)
~ this song is from my favorite band. I just substitute my name for Caroline.... This song lifts me up when I am blue, and gives me hope to go and to live one day at a time. I also get courage to live... WEll let me tell you something before I came to this site or to alanon in general I had no hope, and was ready to die because my life was a mess, and I just could not hang on anymore. I would literally hold a knife to my throat and say I could end it all now. I still don't know why I never did. I know it was God telling me that I needed to be strong, and that he will guide me. I am not a religious person either so don't get me wrong. I just did not have anything to live for. My mom is an alcoholic, and so is my dad. My dad I can care less if he dies because he hurt me soo bad. I used to wish he would get a heart attack or get run over by a car. I sometimes still feel that way, if you are reading this and dont know what I mean read my profile, and you will see why I hate my father. He was never punished for what he did to me, and he is free to do it again to another person. I never got justice, and that is very hard for me to deal with. Sometimes.... this is soo bad but I had the chance to kill him many times, and I almost did one time while he was sleeping, but then I thought.... Why would I go to jail for him he isn't worth killing.... well if ya want to know more just message me or w/e
Lauren~
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~life is like a box of chocolates you never know whatcha gonna get~
Are you still under the age of 18? If so, I believe you can have him arrested. You may want to contact an attorney. He could do this again to another child. You have every right to hate him for what he did to you. You may not see it now, but with a support group and 12 step recovery, you will get rid of the pain and live a wonderful life. I hated my father for beating and trying to kill my mother. I wanted him to die too. Because of being in a support group and using the 12 steps, my life is changing into something I could only dream of. I no longer hate my father but see him as a very sick man. I am actually glad that I went through what I did because I can't imagine not having the friends I have now and living life the way I do. I know this may seem very difficult to believe. I thought people were blowing smoke up my arse when I heard them say this when I was in early recovery, but they were telling the truth! You are NOT alone and we are all here to help you.
