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OK, while trying to figure out how to login to the meeting in progress, I probably disturbed those in the morning "meeting room" today... if so, I apologize. I cannot figure out for the life of me how to log on as ESH. The danged thing keeps telling me that I am giving an erroneous, command or something like that. Sometimes it lets me login as ESH123, other times it just makes me a guest. I'll try to figure it out later on, when a meeting is not in progress.
Am having a rough time at work & with depression as well. They are both kind of feeding into each other. The depression has me tired, I cannot concentrate, I get so confused lately, and keep wishing that I would just die (no, I am not suicidal... I will not kill myself!) There are other symptoms, too, but I cannot even think of what they are at this moment.
I've been getting into hot water with the boss lately. I am a recruiter (i.e. like a sales job) and it is a high pressure position. If anyone here is in sales, you will automatically know the pressure I speak of... just imagine that pressure and not getting a commission! That is my position!
The job is very stressful and I am not getting any support from the office. It is the kind of place that gives criticism freely and is big on finger-pointing. They put forth impossible goals for us, making promises that we have never been able to keep. They never acknowledge or reward the good things that we do.
Regarding "finger-pointing"... my A gave me some good advice about that. He said (as he was gesturing the finger pointing with his hand) that when someone is pointing at you, there are 3 fingers pointing right back at them! heheheh! I never thought of it that way and I LOVE it!
I have every symptom of depression (which I am under an MD's care for) except for hopelessness... I have never lost hope. Coming to a place such as this gives me hope. Glad to have found you all. Thanks.
Hi ESH- My A is in sales as well, I know all too well about the pressure of it! Interestingly enough--YOU don't have to smoke pot to cope with it like someone I know does! Hmmmm! take care. I give you a lot of credit,sales is grueling Jeanne
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In the long run the pessimist may be proved right, but the optimist has a better time on the trip.- Daniel L. Reardon
That was my answer. Eased the depression, therefore making my outlook on my "crappy" job a little more optimistic.
The program encourages physical health in order to maintain mental health, at least what we CAN control. I am so darn stubborn that it took me 6 years in the program before I actually admitted that I have to feed myself in order to be sane....blamed all my misery on the alcoholic.
Esh about the room a mistake was made and you were booted from the room by accident.. Just type /nick Esh123 or add different numbers when it says erroneous nick.
kerry
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I had registered my nickname and then was unable to log in with it until it was mentioned in the room to type /nick (nickname) (password). Just typing /nick and the name, I was getting "Erroneus Nickname". Not sure if you have ESH registered or not, but if you do that might help you out.
Take care,
FOTB
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So sorry and please accept my apology. This morning (Wednesday) when you came in the room I was trying to help you and changed my own nick to yours by mistake and had to boot you to straigten out the mistake! :(
When I come into the room, for some reason, I need to type my nickname into the room twice. First I type: /nickserv identify Shimo password....then I have to type: /nick Shimo password. I do not know if this would help you but it is what I have to do to get in the room since we have been having problems with the site. It is very frustrating and I am sure, doubly frustrating for you today since I had to boot you to straighten out the error I had made!!
Once again, I am so sorry and I do hope you are successful the next time you attempt to enter the chatroom. You can rest assured I will be very careful and not do that mistake to you again!!
Love in recovery - Jeri
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The ultimate lesson all of us have to learn is unconditional love, which includes not only others but ourselves as well. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
