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Well as I posted earlier, I am back. I was so happy to be able to come here and post that I am back to the board.
This weekend was horrible. My "A" and I fought all weekend. It started over something stupid. We were having problems with the virus scan and I was trying to figure it out. I was having difficulty with it, so I was getting upset. Well then my "A" got upset. Then we started fighting.
He left for awhile and took the kids. He came back like 5 hours later, and I had clamed down by then and I was waiting to see if he had to. He sent the kids outside to play, and then told me that he was pawning out TV and the computer and whatever else he could to pay off a bill that we had. I was immediatley back on the defensive. We go into another huge fight. He called up our Phone company and had them dissconect the DSL. You know it is amazing when you lose a service because you can't pay for it, it takes them days to turn it back on, but when you call and ask to have them take it away it is gone. So now I don't have internet access at home.
I woke up this morning and decided to participate with the games he is playing, and I told myself that everything will be ok. I have 3 meetings to go to this week, and so I have my alanon. I will use my breaks at work to check in here, and as soon as I can, I will get the DSL in my name, and then this won't be an issue.
So life is crazy, but it still goes on. All I can do is take care of me and leave his stuff to him. I lost a little this weekend because I participated in the fight. But the past is the past all I can do is work on me and hopefully next time I won't bait my own hook, or take his bait either.
Much Love,
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"Today's problems can not be solved if we still think the way we did when we created them" -Albert Einstein
You are so right. On thrursday I ended up losing it. My husband started this crap of disappering and not knowing where he is. Then he ends up calling me to come get him. I did live an learn I guess. With each day we get stronger.
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Hey everyone watch me grow. I go thru good & bad times. each day i am getting stronger.
It is always nice to see you. I am not able to give any tips or suggestions now. It you read my recent post you will see I am a mess right now. But, I read your post and am wishing you all the best . cdb :)
