The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
When I first came into these rooms I felt alone and frighten. I didn't think there was a person in this world that could help me. I thought I was in a gaint mess and it was sinking very fast.
I would be upset and start throwing stuff, glass, cutting my arm and so far. I would call him so much I thought my phone would explode.
Well thank goodness times have change. I am getting so far better at not calling him alot but of course I do still call him. I haven't really lost my tempter voilet in a while now which is good. This time I know that he is back drinking I have friends to help me through it.
I know some day i will be able to make the decision that is right for me but that it is going to take time. I have to work on being detached before I can decide whether to leave or stay.
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Hey everyone watch me grow. I go thru good & bad times. each day i am getting stronger.
Hey last year when I went to jail for throwing a phone at my A, I voluntarily took an Anger Management course, and then the courts sent me to Domestic Violence Counseling for a year....let me tell you, I have learned the best tools.....I have found stuff online also....I learned that when I think I'm angry sometimes I am not acknowledging what feelings I am really having....like I may be tired, frustrated, hurt, or lonely, but I only expressed it as anger. I also learned that some behaviors we have are learned and we can unlearn them....you sound like you are doing so good, I am finding it all takes time and to be gentle with the process...you should be very very proud of yourself!!!!!
You are getting so much stronger. Remember don't rush, take a deep breath and keep taking those baby steps. It's hard work getting better. Be good to yourself. I'm proud of you.
Live strong, Karilynn
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.