Feeling quite anxious again.  My ex A has gone to Canada for two weeks (we live in the UK) , mostly to visit his girlfriend, but i understand AA has paid for his flights because he will be attending meetings in toronto as a guest speaker.  Feel so angry and hurt that he is seeing this women and i was not good enough again. I know this is stupid as i am good enough for anyone.  I am attractive, kind, caring and sexy kinda women but still he makes me feel worthless.  I am anxious during the day and at night when i eventually get i sleep i have nightmares.  I know i have to let go and let god but finding this so hard to do.  I have a f2f meeting today hope this will help.  He rang me yesterday , probably to say he got there ok and speak to the children but i could not face speaking to him and so did not answer my phone, then felt bad because I was depriving the kids of speaking to him. Wish i was not so obsessed.  Sorry dont mean to moan just needed to vent.