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I've been dealing with relative generated stress the last couple days, which isn't helping matters at all. Last night my mother had either been drinking or her meds had been mixed up again. She tried to get me into the guilt/shame trip, which I just don't have any tolerance for anymore. She was also ripping me for moving/abandoning her (bunch of crap). I was so pissed off that I was literally fuming. Good thing there was a face to face meeting nearby and I could vent most of it.
Another relative is going to pay for an expensive independent evaluation to try and hurry the social security process along. I think it's a waste; unfortunately I have to go along with it as time is a factor.
I went to Portland State to clear my e-mails, so that's done. Today I may need to go back to CCC and get some forms printed so I can tie up a couple loose ends. I converted my two online accounts for temp firms to Portland. It may be necessary to go to the places in person; will wait and see. Maybe I can get to one or two temp firms to get paperwork switched over. Mail arrives late here so the mail i'm expecting won't show up till maybe 4:30-5 pm and it will be a race to get everything processed in time. If not, I'll do it Friday.
Good for you for continuing on. All the red tape bs is always a hassel. Take a breath and keep on going.
do you have food and????
What gets the SS is lots and lots of paperwork about your condition.
Do you have an attorney hax? they take 25% of your lump sum but it is worth every pennie. It also shows you cannot do it yourself. The attorney knows just what to do.
It also makes it go faster becuz they know what the judge needs.
I am sorry you had a bout of mom. I am sure it brings up all kinds of yuck. Remember it is not her talking.
I've been thru alot of what you're doing - applying for social security (couldn't have done it without my lawyer tho), applying for housing - years ago, etc. It is a hassle. Too bad the bad apples muck the system up for the good people. My prayers are with you. I'm new - but do know how you feel. The mom thing - ug - love her - not the disease. One day at a time.
So glad you posted. Have been thinking about you! I am so sorry you are having so much trouble and time delays in getting thru all the "red tape." You really didn't need that thingy that went on with your Mom. Am so glad you were able to make a meeting so you could vent and get all that out! You know what the truth is, hon!
Keep putting one foot in front of the other, haxi. As always, I am keeping you in my prayers and will sure be glad when you can get back on line with all of us. Steady as she goes, my friend!
Love in recovery - Shimo (Jeri)
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The ultimate lesson all of us have to learn is unconditional love, which includes not only others but ourselves as well. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
