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MY EX-A STILL DRIVING ME MAD. HE HAD BEEN REALLY NICE LAST FEW DAYS, THINK BECAUSE HE HAD A FRIEND STAYING WITH HIM AND WANTED TO SHOW HIM AND HIS FRIENDS THAT WE WERE ALL A FAMILY AND FULLY SUPPORTING HIM. HE IS GOING TO AMSTERDAM FOR THIS WEEKEND TO SPEAK ON BEHALF OF AA AND CAME ROUND THIS MORNING TO SEE THE KIDS. I HAD HOPED HE WOULDNT COME UNTIL I HAD GONE TO WORK . BUT HE DIDNT AND SPENT 30 MINUTES RANTING ON ABOUT HOW WEEK AA IN THE UK WAS AND DIDNT ONCE SPEAK TO THE KIDS. I TRIED TO TALK TO HIM ABOUT THINGS THAT WERE CONCERNING ME ABOUT HIS COMPLETE LACK OF HELP WITH THE CHILDREN LATELY AND I ADMIT I LOST MY TEMPER AND WE STARTED ARGUING. I TOLD HIM THE ONLY RESPONSIBILITY HE ACCEPTS TOWARDS HIS FAMILY WAS TO GIVE US MAINTENANCE. HE SAID WE DONT HAVE A FAMILY AND MAYBE I SHOULD DO AS THE TRADITIONS SAY BE FULLY SELF SUPPORTING. I THREW HIM OUT AT THIS STAGE AND SLAMMED THE DOOR IN HIS FACE . BEEN REALLY FED UP ALL DAY NOW AND FEELING SICK. DONT KNOW WHY I LET THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME.
I am so sorry that your day is going badly. Don't be angry with yourself for slipping and letting him get to you. We all do it, just start this moment picking up the pieces and regaining a level of serenity. Take this moment to relax and breathe deep and think of happy things, thing you can be grateful for and hopefully your day will turn around.
Keep coming back, and as everyone tells me progress not perfection.
