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I just spoke to my A. It makes me sad to know he is battling a battle on his own. He is on his way home from work, it's Thursday, and at our house that's Pizza night. The last few weeks I have had to do the ordering, when in the past it has been his and the boys thing. He gets home about 3 hours before me, so it has been a nice treat for me too. It is the one night a week that I don't think about healthy eating. Anyway, he didn't come home until late last night, so when he answered his phone, I asked where he was. He said, "headed home and he said I'm so sorry, I know it doesn't mean anything but I am sorry, I keep doing the same thing over and over and so sorry doesn't mean anything." I told him that "it's not because of doing the same thing over and over; it's that it is always connected to one thing, alcohol/drugs." He said he knows he has to work harder at it and that he just hasn't been working at it at all. (This is the first time I can recall in 7 years since he relapsed that he has acknowledged that he has a problem at all) I reassured him that I do love him but at times it's so very hard on me and the kids, when he doesn't call or come home, the boys are always asking me if I'm okay. Maybe this is a tiny tiny step, but today I will accept it as a tiny miracle. Thank you Higher Power.
Hey!! That's great!! One step at a time.. Sounds like a spark of hope! I'm so happy for you :) Progress, not perfection. I am praying for you that this will be a good turn around. Sounds like you have opened the lines of communication. Hope you all enjoy your pizza, yum!! Love TLC
(((((((((((((marmare)))))))))) We do have samll miracles and it is good that you can see it that way. Mine was finally getting out of bed today even though it was after dinner. You sound like such a good, caring, responsible parent. I too agree the lines of communication are important. What you said to your husband about being sorry was so wise. It does come down to the alcohol/drugs. Watch the behavior. I still like that one. Since I am feeling somewhat better, I will start praying again and surely put you on my prayer list. Keep the focus on you. Someone has to be there for those boys! You are a great role model and it will be imprinted on them forever. your friend in recovery, cdb
