You are absolutely right in your post to me yesterday.  Thank You for the advice.  I don't want to do something that I will regret.  A good friend at work warned me that I shouldn't make any decisions right now.  He said that people may take advantage because I am vulnerable and then I will end up in a worse situation.  He is right and so are you.  And I do have to be responsible for so many things.  I, too feel like a single parent without the benefits.  I get tired of always being the responsible one.  Sometimes I would like to just let my hair down adn have fun.  There are times I am actually jealous of husband's addiction because he has drugs to numb pain and sees the world through rosey glasses while I deal with things without the beneits of drugs and alcohol.