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I am feeling sad today, because yesterday I spoke to my oldest son, and he started speaking against my younger son.
I told him that we don't throw stones, when we live in a glass house. He was talking against my youngest son, telling me that he was drinking yesterday, that he was going out with a ????? and that he was angry with his brother, and I said STOP!! I told him that I did not want to speak about my youngest son when he was not there. I know that two days prior, my oldest son was in the bar, and drinking again too.
Some days are more difficult than others, and eventhough I can think about this in a rational way, my feelings affect my body, and I get pains in my back. Just posting what I am thinking and feeling will help me have a better day. Expressing feelings is the only way, I also spoke to my sponsor today, and I am Letting Go and Letting God/HP take care of what I can not take care of. Thanks for being there, and for listening.
Hi...Linda? It's Geneva (G1129) last year. Since opening the craft shop, haven't been on the board. Shame on me.
I'm sorry your son is getting to you. Good for you telling him to not discuss your older son without him present. I hope you're taking care of you. You do sound stressed. Let it all go, and put it in HIS hands.
Isn't it so good to just vent???? I've missed it so much.
I am so very happy to hear from you. It is wonderful that you have your craft shop, and you went for it!! good stuff.
I am doing well, and not so much stressed out as sad. I am still changing the things that I can change, and I know in time that my HP will see me through this time too. If the HP brings us to it...He will bring us through it. This is a saying that helps me to put some calm into my life.
In February, I decided to take some time out, and it was the best gift that I could give to myself. I am going to two meetings a week, I have started therapy to work on past childhood issues, which will last for fifty-two weeks, and I can find happiness in my own life, eventhough my sons are not doing well. One thing for sure is.....that sometimes I have it, and sometimes I do not. I am still sponsoring three people, and I am able to understand their pain. The HP puts people on our paths that need to be there and they help us to see inside of ourselves too. I also have a sponsor, and day by day my life is going towards better.
I am so sorry you are feeling sad that sound like a very overwhelming situation but it sounds like you handled it like a Pro.
It must be so hard to watch you children suffer from this terrible disease, it is so much hard to not want to fix everything for them when that is what we are supposed to be here for.
It feels good to be validated in what I am going through right now. Our children are always our children, no matter how old they are, because they are part of our heart.
Having Al-Anon and this message board helps me to detach with love. My eldest son has not called me since yesterday, and I know that he did not accept what I had said to him. I will give him the time and space that we both need, and things will smooth over with the help of my HP. Thanks for being there, and for being a part of my life.
