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I realized as I was starting to write this post that I am in a HALT mode. I am not Hungry, but I am Angry, Lonely, and Tired. I am in confusion about relationships, and the direction HP is taking me. I follow the path that HP sets before me, and then I run into a brickwall. I know I have options to go left or right, but I am confused. Why did HP send me in this direction in the first place if all I was to get was a brick wall? And why are all these relationships such a struggle? I know HP has a plan, but I don't understand what it is and why. I hate whining, and I am not asking for answers, but hugs would be appreciated as I make my journey with my HP.
Thanks, SenoraBob
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Higher Power doesn't always wrap presents in pretty paper.
Maybe what HP is telling you is to slow down and do nothing for now? I know I am sometimes so busy LOOKING for guidance, that I walk right over the big fat heap of guidance that is laying right in my path.
There used to be a humourous radio program here that had a slogan that I have taken to heart - "Stay calm, be brave, and wait for the signs".
Hi Bob - You certainly may have hugs - lots of them. (((((((((((((((((Bob))))))))))))
I've found that when I keep running into brick walls I'm generally doing things "my way". It took a lot of brick walls and talks with my sponsor for me to realize this.
Now I try for Easy does it and Think before I jump. If I'm still in doubt doing nothing is the best choice for me.
HMMMMMMMM Don't have any fish here lol. Was thinking amybe the brick wall isn't really there. maybe u need to do some footwork? Keep looking for signs. HP does have a plan and u r where u r suppose to be. Love ya.
Sending lots of hugs to Peggy. (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Peggy)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Hugs and warmth to you Bobbie! More hugs and warmth! No words for you just a gentle and understanding embrace. Hugs and warmth. Hugs and warmth. ((((Bobbie)))) (((((Bobbie))))) ((((((Bobbie)))))) (((((((Bobbie))))))) ((((((((Bobbie)))))))) (((((((((Bobbie))))))))) ((((((((((Bobbie))))))))))
Hi SenoraBob! And hugs, yes, plenty of them! For what it's worth, I always find, when I'm experiencing a lot of struggle and getting worn out, that I'm actually being pushed towards my higher power and more surrender. It's just takes time (I'm so used to struggle) before I realise it!!!! I like the word "unmanageable", because by the time I get around to remembering it and using it, it's like a sigh of relief! Ah, yes, there's that thing called "surrender to a higher power"! I don't HAVE to do it all myself.
Any way, good luck, and thanks for sharing, and reminding me of some things!
(((((((((((((Bob)))))))))))))))))))) abrazos grandes para usted!
I understand your pain and confusion, and I certainly sympathize with you. I have been trying to remind myself that it's all about the journey. Your journey has made you a wonderful, funny, heartfelt person, and I love you for that!
I was thinking and this picture of what you might look like came into my head. A very strong woman whith this huge heavy sledge hammer. Guess what you were smashing down that brick was with the biggest smile on your face. You had concored yet one more challange of life and the smile on your face showed that you needed that brick wall to gain added strength!!!
You sure have alot of great replies. I see sooner is a big hugger too like I am. LOL I can relate to what you put. I am hitting a brick wall or a brick person with my spouse lately. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Who knows what the future holds? I am just trying to detatch, detatch , detatch. Keep on reaching out for support. ((((((((((((((((supportive hugs))))))))))))) cdb :)
Wow , sorry to hear your struggeling ... I can really relate , I feel like a Strugglin Poster Child at times
Your post and the responses have reminded me of how much I need to keep surrendering to HP and " the plan"
I will be very frank ....I sometimes find "the Plan" notion very hard to buy into ... and I CERTAINLY cannot buy into it for others when I look at the suffering in the world .... then I revert back to my personal 50/ 50 theory
I figure there is a 50% chance it is True ... and so , when i am working with that in my head and focusing my energies that way ... things seem to work better for me , and I plain ol' feel happier
i must confess I have had a hard time w/ this concept for the last few years
When my A was sober , I experieced my life as truly wonderful , I felt I had more happiness than I could ever dream of , I felt at 40 that if I died the next day ...it would be fine , coz I had had such a wonderful time
Then
He drank ..........we split up ........I became disabled and cash was a real issue .....that desperation led me here
and things have been looking up ( though in a 2 steps forward, one step back , kinda way) ever since
soo ....I hold on to the things I read and hear in alanon as the truth I choose to believe , mainly because it gives me HOPE
i had lost hope
I hope you find all the happiness love respect kindness health and abundance we all deserve coz you sure are worth it
You came to the right place for a hug. I sometimes feel the same way. I remind myself of all I've learned on this journey my higher power has put me on. And when I do, I realize that I'm so much stronger than ever before. If I can turn my worries over to my higher power it is so freeing. I used to think that was a cop out. What could God do for me. I thought, he put me here so why would he help me. Now I know it is to grow. Just remind yourself of "growing pains"!
My brick wall usually means that I'm trying to force things that take time. And when I'm patient the answers fall in my lap and feel so right. Don't kick the wall, sit on it and enjoy the view.
Maybe your HP didn't put that brick wall there?! That brick wall you slam into may be a sign that you have unfinished business left behind before you can go forward. Maybe you need to rectify something you did, or focus more on you, or just to accept before you can go forward.
(((((((((((((((((((bob)))))))))))))))))) One for today.
((((((((((((((((((bob))))))))))))))))))) One for tomorrow.
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Your friend, ~De Anna~ 8-D
Bob I cried when I read your post things get so confusing I agree and Brickwalls arelikea laberinth (cant spell) LOL any way remember we all love you and we share your wall cause ouch I bump into often hurts worse than that trout you are always hitting me with LOL I love you dear friend and we will make at cause we are worth so much!!!!!!!!! And when the world wakes up and sees the are missing us great people what a wonderful world it will be. take care hun love you much always cloud aka Rae Ann ((((((((BOB))))))))))) I could never send enough hugs via pc if I was there u have to call the feds lol
The HP plans, are not always our plans. Sometimes, it is difficult to understand the why. Our HP guides us, and often our plan is not our HP plan for us. I know that my relationships were very difficult, and very stormy at one time, and it is going much better now. I have learned to stay focused on myself first. In doing so, as a result my partner has changed his behaviours, and attitudes towards me. Be gentle, caring, and respect yourself and your limits.
