The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
The real kicker for me in recovery has been this. I thought my head had it, but not my heart. After 3 yrs. on this board and over 2 in f2f, I learned this.
My head had it, my heart had it, but my spirit had not ! My spirit had not healed yet ! We can have wisdom in our Heads, The Wisdom of the Heart---but I had gotten spiritually sick, too. That's the part of me that was not well yet this year of 2005. My spirit is still dealing with the trauma of alcoholism, healing and accepting it all. I hope when my spirit heals, I can Stand Up For Myself !
I have caused my own self great amount of stress by changing things around.
Sometimes my brain gets scrambled up. But still, I remember the pain, rely on the support of alanon and push myself forward, almost every day. Sometimes I am stagnant and fall back but more progress is happening...
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Megan
If you want things you never had you need to do things you have never done