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Some things are finally going my way. The landlord is getting ready to get rid of some of the more antisocial people who live in my house. In a few weeks they will be gone. In addition, as some of you know I have had the job from hell for the past few months. I got yelled at again this morning over nothing! I have a good shot at getting another job in the next week. In theory I'd have to do 1/12 jobs for a while but I can do that. I just live in fear about money as I am so tremendously broke and in debt and poor and housed terribly and sick and of course really really tired to the bone! The hours are not that great (swing shift) but they will mean that at least I can go to the doctor and dentist which I really need to do! I can't even get a lunch hour where I am now! I can do that for a while and try to work out where I can go next.
Please send up prayers that these transitions go well for me. I really super need a break.
I will be glad to say a prayer for you and your well being. I'm sure by now you know my belief of "the energy you put out is what you get back". When I read your statement " I just live in fear about money as I am so tremendously broke and in debt and poor and housed terribly and sick and of course really really tired to the bone!" ...Yikes! girl!! That's what is coming to you because that is what you see. See it differently! See the future.
How about "knowing" that this too shall pass. Believing that something better is just around the corner. Be certain that this is just short term and visualize the future you deserve.
OK, call me a crackpot..lol But this has worked in my life and countless others. I believe it is what HP wants for me and everyone on this planet. I wasn't put here to suffer. I was put here to create my best life.
Christy
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If we think that miracles are normal, we will expect them. And expecting a miracle is the surest way to get one.
Well I do see the future. I don't see a future of debt, craziness and more. I keep putting out to get better. I turn away from craziness. I turn away from people treating me badly. I did not do that before. I put up with it.
I do need support and encouragement though. I need a lot of it.
I may be a long long way away in time and space but I am right by your side and rooting for you the same as Christy and Nancy.
Prayers still winging their way across the pond to you. Chin up 'cos you might otherwise miss that little bit of blue sky for looking down at the murky puddles, well you would be walking through FLOODS here; it just never seems to actually stop raining.
So grateful that I am not flooded, so perhaps you could all pray for those who have not been so lucky and are refugees from their homes that have recently been flooded. The forecast does nothing to aid their despair.
HeartB
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"The highest form of wisdom is kindness." The Talmund
I am just waiting for the post from you that tells us of your miracle. I know it is coming. I don't know what the circumstance will be or when, but I won't be surprised when I see it.
Lou
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Every new day begins with new possibilities. It's up to us to fill it with the things that move us toward progress and peace. ~ Ronald Reagan~
Sometimes what you want to do has to fail, so you won't ~Marguerite Bro~
((((maresie)))) Sending up prayers and positive thoughts for you in your transition. I'm with Lou - I believe that your miracle is around the corner. I think it's waiting for you to claim it. Peace, R3
Sending prayers your way, that HP will wrap his loving arms around you and give you the peace you deserve. Also praying that your job situation and your finances will improve. As the others have said, you are overdue for a miracle. Just believe.
Take Care of yourself.
Love and Blessings,
Claudia
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A person's a person no matter how small --Dr Suess
Things can only get better right? I think the most important thing for you to remember is put yourself first and don't sell yourself short! for me, when it comes to money I put myself first (living in a good place, food, lights, etc.) then if there's anything left over the bill collectors might get some. I hate to see you so bogged down by this debt. Remember pay yourself first, put yourself first and if they don't get paid they don't get paid. Life goes on! I just tell them not to call me anymore when I get calls from bill collectors. You gotta do what you gotta do for you first!
The bill collectors are just one part of it. I badly need medical and dental attention. If I go the low income route I have to go during the day there is no ifs ands or buts about it. Those programs are only available during the day. If I get the job I've applied for (which is swing shift mainly) I can get to go to the doctor. Where I currently work if I take one minute off they have a fit. I work long hours (admittedly I get paid for them) but my physical health and mental health is suffering). In addition if I get this job I can sign up with one of the counseling programs nearby and get an intern. I know that isn't always the best but it would help. I can have time to interview around (that is if there are any jobs in a recession) and look around for somethere that isn't psycho like the place I am working at. The good news is that the landlord is probably going to evict the most anti social person in the house I live in (he is a pschopath) and that will help too.
Believe me I know its going to take a while to get out of the hole I got into with the A. A year ago I wasn't even out of the house I was still trying to work out how to get out of there. I had no money (made minimum wage then) and had no idea how to get out. I was nevertheless determined to go. I got out now I have to get out of another mess. I don't expect it all to change overnight but this particular job would really work for me on many levels.
My Higher Power knows your need...and mine of course. Keep and open mind without explicit expectations and have patience. What goes around, comes around. ((((((hugs))))))
