Hi all,
Still no tower at home. My boss didn't get a chance to work on it this weekend, but hey he is helping me out and for free, so that is a huge blessing. :) I will be back soon. I do have a tower I borrowed from a friend before this other tower came up so I may see if it works tonight, but since it is borrowed I haven't wanted to because of all the stuff I would need to download and install. But I need a meeting, so we shall see:)

As for my marriage he wasn't supposed to show up, but he did Saturday. I had arranged to take him his things, but he showed up at my home. He actually started to climb through a window. He didn't think I was at home since the car was in the garage, and I don't normally park it there. It was kind of funny we both scared the heck out of the other one.

He was fine, wasn't threating in anyway. We talked and talked all weekend. I love him, and he loves me, but we decided to part ways. He saw in me that I had given up on us. I really hadn't seen that I had given up on us until he asked when it happened. That is when I knew, I saw the day perfectly.

We talked and decided to end things friendly for the sake of the kids. He was even going to stay on my couch until he found a job. I wasn't sure how tonight would go, but wanted to support him how I could.

He called me at work this morning in a panic. He had a job, and needed to get about 60 miles away sometime today. I asked him when he needed to be there, and he told me today. So I left work for a bit and picked him up and took him. We held hands the whole way there. It is sad, we both have such love for each other, but right now (and maybe forever) can not be together. He is working on a boat, getting it ready to go to Alaska.

I can see HP in all of this. I can see how HP was working in this and how HP will be there to help me get through all this. I know this was right, the right decission, but dang this hurts so much.

Love you all,
Mandy