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The A is now less than 23hours away from his court date. I cam certain he is going to get jail time. I am at peace with that. On the weekend he showed up to claim his tools. I said nothing, no remonstration about what he eneded to do, where he was, what he was doing. If he wants his tools he can have them.
He has a tool box in the storage unit now and I doubt he will come to pick that up for quite a while. I would imagine he will lay low for a long time because he will be prime to be arrested if a warrant is isused. For his court date he does not have to be present but I have no doubt he will get jail for his crazy driving. He has numerous reckless driving arrests and a number of tickets outstanding. I am so relieved not to be making myself sick worrying about it. I would be trying to take charge in the past, trying to make his landing soft and he never appreciated it.
He was in some clunker of a car. I have no idea what he has done with the truck, I imagine he sold it as a wreck (which it was) and got some small settlement from the insurance. I stopped paying the insurance fo the truck months ago. He's claimed to others the truck was his and he was entitled to take it and sell it. I did my best in trying to get the truck back and I have no doubt that civil record along with my accounts of his reckless driving will go some way in getting him jailed for the hit and run he did. So it was not just wasted space.
I am happy living with my two dogs. I wish I knew where to go from here, I don't but I just keep taking one step in front of the other. That's all I can do.
If the A contacts me from jail, at the moment I have no intention of writing him back. I want to be out from under his chaos and upheaveal. I wnat him out of my lfie and I want no futher part in trying to help him. I helped until I could help no more and now I just need to say goodbye.
Take care of yourself and give the mutts(my term of affection) a big hug from Jen.
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
Letting go is so difficult, however letting go is amazingly strengthening. It is the learning and the gaining of discernment that matters, so that one knows what one has to let go of and when.
I am touched by the calmness I sensed from your words.
Having only been in this room for two days I am surprised that I am writing to you but you see, I am doing as I was advised and I have been peeking at stories of others and yours has truly blessed me.
I am a contemplative person and one who takes time to pray; if it is not offensive to you I shall pray for you as I contemplate what it is to let go, and what it takes to let go?
With love,
Heartbroken
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"The highest form of wisdom is kindness." The Talmund
