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hi all,well as for my grandkids they are living with my ex-husband..that is a big mistake now i cant talk to my granddaughter,or find out how they are..my ex has already brainwashed my daughter and son {19,22}they dont call me anymore or let me now what is going on..my oldest son{24}CALLS AND TELLS ME WHAT IS GOING THERE IN NY..my daughter doesnt call me anymore or my son cause i dont have anymore money to offer to help them..my ex told my daughter he would help in anyway he could.but i bet that comes with ties attched but im not going to let it bother me..the other day i wanted to call and tell my daughter off,but my SAH said not to.because i would say things i would regret later,and he said they will come around...my SAH,hugged while i was crying and was upset,wow he has really changed....im just afraid that now they are with him he will pull on them what he did when i left him in 98..he told my daughter she could sign a pice paper stating that when they get an apartment they can have the kids back...he did this to me{i left him cause he drank to much and was abusive but yet the judge gave him custody cause the kids wanted to continue to go to school in the area}i see this happening to my grandchildren}not yet but it will.........................................thanks for letting me vent
So sorry this is happening in your life now. It seems like there is nothing worse than watching what looks like a train wreck and not being able to do anything to stop it. We do understand and we are here in support.
One thing I observed when reading your post is a lot of projecting. Projecting disaster will bring us nothing but grief and anxiety whether the bad thing happens or not. Detachment(I think you already are), and some of the slogans like Easy Does It, Let Go and Let God will help. Everyone you are worried about has a HP to guide and keep them. Your grandchildren are not lost to you, even though it may seem like it now. Even your children are not permanently lost. They have HP and minds of their own. They just have to find their own way. I pray that they will find their way back to you and I know lots of others on this board will have you in their thoughts as well.
In recovery,
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
That has to be tough for you - I'm sorry. One thing that helps me is to remember that I am powerless over others and the situation. And I agree with Bev. They have a Higher Power too. Praying helps me get through and the serenity prayer.
When I pray I visualize that I am placing that person directly into the hands of my Higher Power and ask my HP to watch over them.. Knowing that he is watching over them and that they have their own HP who is leading them down their own path with their own lessons, takes away my "assumed burden" and over responsibilities for the outcome of others. Their HP will direct and led them. The tough part is that it may not be on your timetable or in a way you'd like. Most important, just keep the focus on you and take care of you and your health. If they seem you healthy, that will help in the end. Keep posting, we are here for you too.
