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The A has sold the truck and bought some clunker. He plans to move several states away. He is still living in the trailer and the people there are going nuts trying to get him to move out. This is the second time he's done that in 6 months stuck around when people want him to move out. I don't know what he is sticking around for since he claims to have the greatest job in the world waiting for him.
I fear of course I fear he will come over and harasss me or try to break in and take one of the dogs. He would be crazy to dot hat as there are people at the house I live at all the time and he would not have opportunity to get to my area. In addition I fear he will break into the storage area and try to get to his tools. Of course he hasnt' down that yet. He just sits around and is obnoxious to people which is his trademark.
I don't even like his landlord and I feel sorry for her.
I dont really understand why she doesn't call the police/sheriff as she keeps saying she is going to do. She keeps waiting for him to take some concerted action that makes sense and he has never done that.
I am so sick of his dramarama. I am glad I have done so much work in here about the truck. He is up for a hit and run with the truck on October 9th, 2007. He will probably go to jail then but he has to be found to go to jail. One good thing is that he drives so erratically and crazily he gets picked up pretty quickly so maybe the CHP will get him but really he should never have been allowed out to wait until he had to go to jail. He is an absolute menance on the road and a danger to himself and to others. It is only a miracle he has not killed someone yet.
When I have spoken to him on the telephone he is nasty and dimissive. He has not one shred of a conscience left.
I wish someone would just arrest him and lock him up and make the world safe for everyone. He has reduced himself to being a total disaster every step of the way. If I did not have all this time in al anon I would be remonstrating with him. I am not now I am just waiting for him to go to jail and hoping he gets there sooner rather than later. One week that's all it is one week and then the warrant will be out for him and he can no longer have any influence on my life. I will be so relieved and so gratefu l that he is finally out of my life for ever. He has as his uncle said dug a hole he simply cannot get out of.
i know one sure thing I simply cannot take another moment of this. He has been at this now for 6 months. 6 months of non stop ever draining acting out. 6 months of destroying everything around him. 6 months of lying, 6 months of hanging me out to dry. 6 months of leaving our dogs for days at a time. 6 months of demanding I feed him. 6 months of feeing totally sorry for himself. 6 months of crazy making behavior.
This is it for me. I simply cannot take one more moment of worrying he is going to kill someone with his crazy driving. 6 years of worrying he was not going to come home. I am sick to my back teeth of it.
I am also sick of his family not doing anything. I am sick of it. I am sick of being so distracted I cannot sleep. I am sick of feeling guilty that I let him have the dogs for 2 seconds. I am sick of worrying myself stupid about what he will do next. I am absolutely totally sick to death of him and his craxy behavior and cannot simply cannot take another moment of it.
My words to you are that I understand. I know there are no more words I can say. I have been through it all. I had to go through it. I came out the other side. Life is just different now. Some things are better, some are not. That's how it is for me.
I send you all my support and love. You are in my prayers. AM
Ah but are you sick and tired of being sick and tired? I will be praying he follows through and moves to that other state OR goes to jail... Try to release him from your mind and focus on all your stuff that you need to do for you!
