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Aaahhh I am here .... on and off through out the day. I have been reading posts when I can at work. It has been crazy crazy at the office and I have been so swamped. I think I have responded to a few posts but haven't really felt like I am able to contribute much. Figured better to keep my mouth shut if I don't have something positive to say. Right? LOL. And I believe my HP is helping out w/that one....as there have been a quite a few times where I have typed posts and then it didn't post. I reckon it is a problem w/my ISP - I get an error message a lot of times. Ways around it -precautions I take before hitting that POST button but figured I ought to take it for the sign it obviously is. LOL.
So anyway, I am hanging in there and truly appreciate your concern. Y'all are awesome as always. I am struggling w/Anxiety big time right now. I have trouble breathing....like I feel the need to take a deep breath and I just can't quite get one. The pressure builds in my chest until finally, the deep breath comes. Then it starts all over again. Kind of like climbing a steep hill and getting to the top finally, only to find another steep hill. Maybe be a form of anxiety induced asthma. Don't know. Reckon I should go to the dr but too busy.
The other night I broke out of my proverbial "box" and ordered something different off a menu at dinner. Fish N Chips. I am pretty predictable and always get the same things. I had been picked on a bit earlier in the day about "the box" and so I ventured out of it. Ya know what it got me? An allergic reaction (need to go to the dr about that too, happening more and more now & I haven't a clue what I am allergic to). I got so congested, had to pop 2 Benadryls and go to sleep. So that on top of the breathing problem I am already having...Oh I was a fun person that night. Thinking I will stay in my "box" from now on. LOL.
Oh well....there are a lot more things to tell in regards to my AH and other life experiences. Maybe I will be able to post about it today. Thanks again for checking in with me.
Oh there you are!! I knew from previous posts things were stressful, and I didn't want you to think you were alone and that your presence here was not missed :)
How you describe the anxiety, that is almost exactly how it affects me when it gets bad . . . like I can't get a deep enough breath, like a rock is in my chest. That feeling makes me want to crawl into "the box" and never come out, but it always dwindles away with time, rest and getting "it" out.
You gotta wonder why our bodies just flip out sometimes.
