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Live and learn - seems I learn every thing by doing rather than hearing - the school of hard knocks! So I slept throught a weekly meeting but I went to an evening one a few days later. Then last wkend I really felt good, did well and had a good talk with A...... so I just forgot about the meeting the next morning. I couldn't believe I just did that plus I didn't go all week so now....
yup, lost my bearing and wasn't my authentic self. Didn't think what I wanted nor say what I wanted to do or not do. I just did what others wanted of me 50 % of the time today. Got anxious, tired, irritable, digestive system out of whack and just plain sad as a result. And it seemed to give my power away as I learned a new truth about my marriage that I don't agree with but could see I gave that away years ago. Need to get that changed eventually. One day at a time.
So yes I have found a meeting to attend tomorrow afternoon and I will be there. I am hoping I will be comfortable at this new meeting as it is closer to my home but just will be uncomfortable if I know someone at the meeting. If I can attend one closer to home I can attend more routinely and maybe even more often. I will do it tomorrow and keep thinking one day at a time.
I want to think happy thoughts and be more positive. Think I will go to bed and start fresh again tomorrow, a brand new day!!
ddub
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Hi Ddub , don't worry about meeting someone u know , they will be there for the same reason you are , they love an alcoholic . anonymity is the basis of our program so it is a safe place to share . Would be nice to have someone u already know so u feel comfortable . Perhaps you weren't ready when u went to your first meeting sometimes we go with a pre concienved idea of what we are going to hear and when we don't get what we went for we are dissapointed . Listen to the similarities * feelings * not the differences and your going to be just fine . good luck glad u are going to meetings u need support with skin on it sometimes , people who can pick up a phone on a bad day or go out for coffee when u are feeling overwhelmed . Never alone again once settled in our program , alone will be a choice . Louise
I hope you have awakened to a new day full of chances to do the next right thing for you. I have done that many times... gotten busy and distracted, even just plain out of sorts and missed meetings that I needed so desperately.
But you know... this is not going to be fixed in a day, or a 1 hour meeting for that matter. Today is a new chance to do things different. Sounds like you have a plan, and if you are like me... I could stew on what I didn't do much longer than I need to. But you don't have to.
Just for today... I am not going to worry about what I should have done... I am going to concentrate on what is the right thing to do right now, this minute. Thank you for sharing that.
Take care of you!
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(((ddub))), I hope you have a wonderful meeting, one that truly feeds your hungry soul.
I was always nervous about seeing someone I knew at a meeting. I was worried about it. Then it happened, and at first I was freaked out about it. This gentleman I knew from NA when my hubby was attending meetings there. I wasn't going to share at all, but then this voice in my head said "no, this is your meeting to." In my share I even spoke of my internal battle, and how I almost let something ruin my meeting.
In the end it was great. Divia is right, if there is someone there that you know, they are there for the same reason you are.
Keep working it, you are worth it. Yours in recovery, Mandy
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"We are not punished for our unforgiveness, we are punished by it" Jim Stovall
but could see I gave that away years ago. Need to get that changed eventually. One day at a time.
If I can attend one closer to home I can attend more routinely and maybe even more often. I will do it tomorrow and keep thinking one day at a time.
