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Just wondering ~ Lately I feel like all of the "bad" i've done in my life (mostly towards my "x") is coming back to me in subtle ways. I'm beginning to wonder about the idea of karma - what goes around comes around.
Is this possible? Do you believe in this? I never used to but now I wonder.
I believe negative draws negative, positive draws positive. So I strive for a positive attitude. I do not believe we are punished for our wrongs by HP. We seem to do enough of that ourselves.
Things will get better. Just not usually on our timetable.
In recovery,
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~Jen~
"When you come to the edge of all you know you must believe in one of two things... there will be earth on which to stand or you will be given wings." ~Unknown
I'm starting to come around to Jen's thinking. That message of law of attraction is getting bombared on me from all directions and espcially in areas of of my life that are closely alighned w/ this program.
Like Kissers I don't believe my HP punishes me. I think my HP will give me opportunities to change my thinking so that I can grow and have something even better. The sooner I change that thinking, the sooner I will enjoy that positive result.
Bob
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I believe in Karma but it could be exactly what Jen said. I know when I think positively then positive things happen and when I'm in a slump bad things seem to happen. I also think there is a flow of energy throught the earth and everyone on it and that it can't all be positive, there has to be a balance.
I don't agree it's karma either , the higher power I have chosen for myself does not punish . I have found that the way I treat people is how they they treat me . Thankfully recovery has taught me to treat people with respect and tolerance and as for the past I can't change that but I can make amends for my behavior and promise myself that i will never behave like that again ., Louise
Sometimes I get what I call "instant traffic karma" - I stop and let someone into traffic? Bingo, less than an hour later, somebody does the same for me, at a really rotten intersection. I pull out into traffic when it might have been too close for comfort for the driver in the next car? Bingo, somebody does it to me, my heart races, I'm terrified, and THEN I realize - oh yeah - it probably WAS too close for comfort when I did it myself. I'll try to remember this experience.
I love the idea of like attracting like, and I do believe that there's a lot of evidence for it. Norman Vincent Peale's work really revolved around this concept. There's a whole movement now - sometimes pushed over the edge into cultism and charlatanism - called the Law of Attraction - just google it, there's tons of stuff.
Thanks to all of you who replied to my post! It is just what I needed to hear! I don't have a punishing HP ~ I know this and yet I forget. My higher power is gentle, forgiving and caring. If only I could learn to be so with myself.
My life motto (before program) used to be "think positive get MORE out of life, think negative, get less" ~ Interesting how I've forgotten so much from my life "before" ~ It is like I want to "erase" EVERYTHING about who I was ~ throwing the baby out with the bath water ~
I think we all forget. I'm only in this program 2 years (celebrating anniversary this month) and my view of my HP has changed drastically.
(cliff notes version) That said, I had a meditation Sunday where when guided to see myself in the light of my HP, I could not. I cringed and shirked away from my HP. My HP was casting a shadow over me. I was upset, this was not what I expected.
In my dark corner there was a familiar silohette next to me. A dear friend who has loved and accepted me for almost 25 years and who is so loving in their expression of such. They knelt up and were looking down upon me, w/ a loving look and BAM...I no longer saw myself as if I was having an outer body experience, I was looking through their eyes. At that moment, the sun began to rise and I saw myself in the light of my HP. Not through my eyes, by through this person's eyes.
It was a powerful realization that -there was someone who view me like that -and one of those people isn't me
That person saw me how my HP sees me, not as I saw myself. So I obviously have work to go thru in the dept so that I begin to see myself as my HP does.
Bob
-- Edited by bobump at 11:26, 2007-09-13
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You are a perfect child of God and God and I love you just the way you are! (added by me...in that special alanon way)
