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In front of a judge to resolve the child support issue and maybe some other issues. My lawyer says he'll be there but I don't trust him. My ex will be there as he is the one contesting paying any support at all. I don't know, I am scared and I am going all alone. I have just felt so very alone lately. I am comming to accept this and deciding what I want to do about it. How do I want to move forward with my life. How do I see myself? As a single mom with NO family at all. To be strong and content with this vision of my life. To pray that my kids love me and don't turn away from me when they are old enough like I have with my mother. That they fine partners with happy families that they will be welcome into. That they will someday know the joy of an extended family. I cannot give them that as much as I want to.
So, I am scared about facing the judge, my idiot lawyer, and my sick ex. I feel like I am the crazy one. I wanted this divorce and I am so sad about it and I feel like I will never be happy again. I can't see it. I will have faith that God can and I will just keep putting one foot in front to the other.
I had to do this. The judge doesn't want to see a "poor" woman sitting there. KNOW how much your bills come to and if you have to give a total give it with a firm tone. I told the judge "your honor it's $2500 a month to run the house" and the judge said "sounds good to me $2500 it is". I didn't crack a smile or nod my head. Business is now business right. I got that advice here! lol You can do it lawyer or not. Your not a stupid woman. These are YOUR children and you are their advocate, they count on you. Now go to a great job..........:) All my strength is with you today ;) (I'll need it back later) hehehe Love ya chickie.
Welcome to my world... LOL I know how ya feel but it will be ok. Like FOY said, you are a smart and strong woman and if you walk in with your head held high and like you know what it is you need and expect you are more likely to get it. I think that you will do just fine. Don't get angry like she said it's all business when it comes to support and visitation. He's the addict you're the sane one (as far as they know anyway lol) and you focus on the NOW, and make sure you point out to the judge that you haven't received any support. There's no way the judge will give you nothing for supporting 3 kids. Make a budget and figure out what it costs you for everything every month and ask for HALF at least! This too shall pass and things will get better. Don't be weak or feel any sympathy for him when he expects to run off with his girlfriend and leave his family behind with no financial responsibility? Remember, you are all those kids have and you have to get the most and best you can for them, they're all that matters!
Good luck today. Like everyone else said, you are strong and smart. Decide what you need and go for it with your head held hi. You will do fine, I just know it.
Go one little step at a time hon. Today is today, and you are just going to court for child support. Idiot lawyer and deadbeat A aside, you are going to court to get you and the girls needs met and right now, YOU are the one that must do that. It is up to you.
Don't add all the other loneliness stuff to the situation, give it another space, it has nothing to do with making sure your children are supported. I am a very good one to do exactly what you are doing, letting it ALL get to me at once . . . put all those fears and thoughts in a little box for later.
I'll be keeping you and the girls in my thoughts today. Let us know how it goes ok?
