The material presented
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to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I have now been in the room more and found the spirt back that I have lost. I have alot of thing to tell you. So here it goes. The first the is likie I told you that I have been feeling good that I have been spening alot time in the MIP room and helping people like I just too. I haven't been to a face to face I am not ready to go to one yet.
My 3 yr anniversary was on Wednesday and we really didn't give each other anything and I was very upset about that.
Friday I worked and have a great time with the girls. I went out with them around 530 and hung out until 1230. I had a great time.
Sat and Sun I really hung over my sister house. I rather have been with my sister then my husband because I have kind of given up because Rick hasn't been working, hasn't been having sex with me, so I been having more fun with my sister. I have lost total interst in sex all together.
Thanks for listening.
Other then that I feel I am doing good. Oh my sister says I am doing good on other issues that I should be very proud of myself. I am proud of myself that I have been doing good i my attachment disorder that I have been able to spearte from husband.
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Hey everyone watch me grow. I go thru good & bad times. each day i am getting stronger.
If you really want the miracles to happen get to the face to face meetings. There's gotta be some reason you stay out. I stayed out because I originally thought the program wasn't for me and that the members were all a bit crazy and after all I was better than them anyway. NOT!!
I finally came in from the pain. The downpour was killing me and I needed much more than I was trying to get from my own small attempts. Besides the people I met were doing tons better than I was and having a truthfully great time growing in recovery while I was nearly a goner. I gave up using denial as a tool to stay away from the groups. It really saved my life; mind, body, spirit and emotions.
I was hesitant to go to F2F also hon, but the journey has been amazing! I have the most wonderful friends that I have met in alanon. I can truly be myself with them and they understand.
"When the student (you) is ready, the teacher (alanon meeting) will appear."
In the meantime, take good care of you, you are worth it.
yours in recovery, Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?