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Thank you all for the birthday wishes. As Maria said I pop in from time to time to keep grounded. Im not as faithful about a daily or even weekly gratitude list as I would like to be, but, this past month leading up to and through my birthday has definitely given me the chance to do so.
I have been riding the wave of alcoholism for more years than I can remember. I can tell you that it robbed me of so much happiness all of these years. However, it wasnt the disease that took this from me as much as it was myself and my actions and reactions to all that was going on around me. Today I ride the wave of serenity - and let me tell you I prefer this wave much better.
Today I live in a house of sobriety & recovery. With that being said I know full well that it can all be gone tomorrow. For me however, I know that someone elses sobriety is not dependant upon me or a reflection of me (thank you Maria). I am strong enough to do what I need to do to take care of me should the tables turn on a dime. I dont look for that day - I live for today and enjoy what is put before me because I know it is all in my HP's plan for me. I may not like the fact that I am not getting my way - but I have also learned that getting my way is not what is always best for me. I try to live my life by the principles of this simple program. I am not perfect and I often stumble - but I know that I have this board, meeting room & f2f to get me righted on my path.
So while it is my birthday that I celebrate this month, it is my program that I celebrate 365 days a years 24 hours a day. It is the friends I have met. It is the ones who have come before me to show me the way and the newcomer to show me just how far I have come. So while you celebrate my one day - I celebrate you all everyday.
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Nobody cares how much you know until they know how much you care. Love you all!
Karen
Its great to see you doing so well and to see the growth in your post. I too have been grieved by the amount of time, life that is lost to this disease, the years of unhappiness. And can now see that my own actions and reactions and strengths are often what lead me to where I am in my life.
So many years wasted in a way, but so much has been learned too. I thank HP to have carried me out to the right side.
Celebrate, yes indeed, we are all here for each other.
Sorry I missed your birthday Karen. Hope you had a great day and much love and happiness this year. Your post is awesome. Great reminders to me. Thak-you for sharing.
