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I rarely lose my temper. In fact it drove my A nuts how I delt with my anger so quitely.
But after my diagnoses,and the diabetes med making me so sick, I was a B to two of my friends... geez. raving lunatic.
Apologized to both. one has forgiven me, The other well I told her if she does not talk to me, I am heading up there and she has to call me a B and clobber me....
Of course the lack of AH was and is very hard. Like many of us, how come I took care of him when he was so sick, now I am, and I am alone. Did ok though. It is lightening up and I feel a bit better. Actually cut the wood to seal my AC with out messing up!!! Will wonders ever sease???
Was a good day, got shade up for everyone, filled pools and water stuff. Finally went in after working five hours straight, sit down and see a pink tail go by my window....Fannie Alice is out. sigh. she is my teenager yorshire.
It was cool though, she was in the mudhole goofing around. Got her in with "shaking cat food."
just about to go in, back to my recliner and lunch... neighbors dog is loose. rrrrr go to put him back in, there is a frigging lock on the fence... I picked him up and put him over, put a barrier where i thought he was getting out. I almost get home.. here he comes bounding to me.. he is a cool dog, black, pointy nose, tail curls up, would be very dignified but one of his ears goes down. lol
He almost got hit by a car, I screamed, cried and was totally freaked out. got him fixed a hole, then thought NO Way I can see it now, fireworks he gets out, gets hit and I have to take care of it. so.. took their fence apart, got the other dog out, a Basset, brought them both home and stuckem in with mine.
called and left them a message.
finally sat down again after a shower, and someone is at the door. They want a potted pig and had a zillion questions. I was just about to take my nap. We all nap here about two... I am not kidding, even the chickens...
so I talk to them, as you know I live in my bunkhouse, drive my old pickup I love, had on my overall shorts...
they came in a canary yellow Hummer. Gads. lol lol I honestly did not care. they were great.
well anyway I don't like being a B at all. not at all.
OH gads sitting here all comfy, and now the rug dog wants out... hugs, debilyn
Ah (((deb,))) sounds more like you need to be hugged......
As for wishing the A was there for you - think about it. Do you really want him as he IS, there while you are sick? Adding to the chaos in your life, making everything harder with his sick BS? It is tempting to fantasize and pretend that we can get what we need from the A, but people like us can't afford to ignore reality. It will bite us you know where if we do.
i told the A this morning that I am sick to death of hearing about his illness. I have my own illnesses I have to take care of. You may call me a B too.
((((((((((Debilyn))))))))) I won't slap you, but I will hug you!
I wish I had some words of wisdom. AH's can never give us what we want or need. Keep hanging in there for you and the furries. Hope you are doing better soon. love Jeannie
If your "friend" will not accept your apology then she wasn't a friend to begin with and good riddens! That's the way I see it. I have a handful of great friends and they stick wtih me no matter what. They know I am a B so that doesn't catch them off gaurd. hahaha Your farm sounds like a nice place to relax. Except the chickens, they freak me out. yuck ;)
