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Have been working hard on me since last summer to get healthier. My AH hurting me so badly, well the disease, thru me, then losing my daddy then my mom... was way too much.
Have not felt right since then.
Found out I have type 2 diabetes, and some metabolic disorder. All my joints are inflammed. Plus I shrunk an inch and a forth.
I am not getting enough oxygen either. So I have to do some breathing test at night and do a sleep study.
the asthma is a drag.
Anyway I am on a med. and am on a new way of eating, anti inflammatory foods. Completely am off sugar, fed all my cookes to my critters.
the med is making me sick. I guess it does at first.My doc is great. He had gone thru all my tests and put it all together. I had NO idea.
Said he is going to treat this aggressively. I am and will do what he says. It is serious.
If this does not help me, he is referring me to this great surgeon to have bariatric surgery. The latest one is very good. I cannot stand to live in pain anymore. I have to be on this med all my life. If I feel like this I sure will lose fat. I feel horrible. ick
Ya never know what high stress will do to your body. My A's disease really tweaked me. I felt like I had been kicked in the gut.
I have accepted it, but not a day goes by that I don't think of him, my husband.
But when I was in town where he is, the person he is now, I felt nauseated at the thought of seeing him. thought of how he is his disease. ugly, skinny, phoney, user. no one i want to know.
I feel like a kid needing her mom or dad or gma or husband or mother or best friend.. and they are all dead. maybe my body is trying to kill me. Just has had enough. I don't know.
NOt down exactly, just miss my loved ones so much.
thank you for listening. gonna go to bed and cuddle with Tavish, the dog in my avatar... love yous,debilyn
I guess to put it plainly Debilyn you absolutely feel like s..t. I hope the medication starts to work and gives you a bit of relief. Please remember that you are never alone we are always here for you as you have been for us. You are doing the right thing and listening to your body and resting. How about letting go a little and asking someone to give you a hand with all your babies? As I physically can not help you out I will send prayers your way from Australia that a guardian angel sits on your shoulder to look out for you. LUv Leo xxx
Leo it is always great to hear from you. Can I come stay at your house??? lol
I want to come there to Aussie someday. My dream.Would love to see Africa too. I think about going there and volunteering to be a mom for those orphans.
Leo I wish there were someone to ask. Everyone I could ask is no longer on earth.
It is not that hard to feed, plus I have to check on them. I have it all down pretty easy right now. the horses, llamas, and goats are in a nice pasture across from me.
I don't have to feed them. they are so fat from grazing. I do go visit them.
dogs and cats are free fed. Lori, my eight year old neighbor, feeds the chickens and keeps an eye on things.
My son has a difficult marriage and he works so much. I wish he would ask me if I need anything. But I know he is on his last thread.
I can relate to the asthma. I developed it after my last visit to my family of origin. I get very afraid sometimes with it. I try to stay focused. I too have had real issues with medication made me blow up like a balloon.
I am sad that you have no one around to take care of you.
