The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
What a day today has been. I did alot of reading yeterday and I went to bed last night determined to wake up with a positive attitude. I did and I had a great day. There was a break through with my AH today. He tod me something that he has been carrying around for years and he says that it is one of the reasons he is struggling to stay sober. I was proud of myself that I sat and listined. Really listined and didn't interupt and say my opinion until he asked if I had any questions. For me that was a huge step. Today I feel happy. Even if it is only one day it was worth it to know I can feel this way again for myself because I made the decision and no one else. One day at a time that is what I keep telling myself. That is hard for me because I am a planner. I am learning. Slowly but learning. I feel hopeful for the first time in a long time.
Learning is never a race. We are all in different places in our recovery. Congratulations on your quest for patience. Remembering that the A in our lives is a human being and doing the best they can at any given time... is tough sometimes.
Glad you are here!
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown