I just felt compelled to write.  Alot of you know that I have  had a series of losses in teh last year.  To include the love of my life and my best friend just last night.

No experience is ever not worth sharing especially what the experience touches you down deep to teh very fiber of your being. I had to learn that life experiences are sometimes painful but out of that pain can come wisdom and a new way of understanding the mysteries of life.

We often recite the slogans here like just how important is it and  Halt  and so many otheres that we hang on to as reminders that sometimes life is just not fair, and sometimes life deals  us experiences that we can either  benifit from for furture events or curl up in a ball somewhere in hopes that it just passes.

we can sit with our thumb in our mouth or we can reach out and share  all of this with another human being that is struggling in the same manner. My choice is to share in hopes that the benifits are useful to another soul.

I can weather the storms or I can chose to take the storm and ride it to a better place of understanding.It is not so important that I know the facts but it is very important that l live the events and feel the events and ponder the events.  Because life is a series of change. We move thru the change to a different place. Energy  is not a stagnet entity..... it is movement, it is how we challange that energy and how we harness that energy.  I chose to celebrate the lives of those I lost. I can say  I have excelent choices of who I chose to be with  and fill my time with.  I could not say that years ago , because I was critical , I knew nothing of acceptance because teh world had to be within my understanding.  I need not understand anything thing , but I need to experience it all and be grateful for the opportunity  of having the experience.

I can not walk in this world with fear as it stiffles my ability to learn.  I have to always step out of myself  to share with someone . Not control them but apprecitae them  just as they are, just where they are and understand that we all move in different speeds. But we are all moving towards the same thing.

In less then a year, I have learned to deal with sadness in a different manner. To understand that loss is only  a door way for new  things and new and different challanges and life events.
I learned all of this by loving !  I learn to love thru the grace of my HP! That I see in other human beings. I learned that having any expectations here on earth is a waste of time, What truely matters is that we experience life in all the good bad and ugly , all the bright radient  and fantastic times because life is worth living. It is an awsome gift that we can take granted of and waste that precious time spinning our wheels because we have a predesigned idea on how it should go. We have no control on any events in this world. We do however have  the ability to make choices that guide the course of events and how they turn out.

I know way deep in my heart that loving life and those that have life has the most satisfation here. The only thing I can  say  is that it is truely not important who loves us... It is so so very important that we know how to love and do so as often as we are given the opportunity to do so.

to my friend Denise!I thank you for all the unconditional love that you gave me and alot of other folks......... I was truely blessed to have you touch my life . I will miss you alot, but carry you in my heart until I see you again.....Be proud of what you have given me and all others you touched.  I see your smile in my heard every minute i morn your passing.

Thank you for sharing your experiences with me and allowing me to share my experiences with you I love you......this is my family and I know they love you  too
 Please know I love my family here
thank you maggi