I am continuing to rebuild a much happier life- moved into a new house, my job is going great, and I just keep getting better news about my health.

Got the phone call from my mom that I knew would come soon. I made the decision to NOT talk to my mom about my sister's family's problems because I was burned years ago when I initiated the subject when my sister was married to her first alcoholic husband.

My mom asked me point blank if I thought my sister had a presripition drug addiction and I said yes. I then found out that my oldest niece's drug problem was much worse than my sister told me- and as bad as I feared it was when I exposed it all last winter. She is doing and of course will not stop doing Meth.

My feelings on this are strong- both devastating and relieved to know I was not crazy.

It feels good that now someone else in my family sees what is going on. My therapist and some good reading as helped me understand so much about why addicts and abusive people make their number one priority (behind using) keeping the Big Secret.

I am no longer keeping this a secret from my closest friends. I have seen how keeping this inside has alienated me from many of my closest friends. The ones I have told are blindsided. My sister's family looks so normal on the outside and most people who know my sister remember her as the person she used to be.

Even her husband told my mom that she is not the woman he married.

I feel for him and I am disgusted as well. He works so hard to provide for my sister and her girls and I have seen them treat him like dog shit. But at the same time he drinks so much and at times his priorities seem more concerned with weekend binges at sporting events and not paying the electric bill or getting my youngest niece needed medical attention.

Still walking into my new home tonight after paying this month's rent was incredible. I cannot remember feeling this free since I was a kid.

-- Edited by donewithitallandhappy at 03:28, 2007-04-02