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He Wishes!


Hello Everyone!!
                                It's been a long time since I've been here and I sure have missed the MIP board! My 90 day anniversary of leaving the AH is just a couple of days away now, and things are finally moving in the right direction for me. It hasn't been easy by a long shot...I have my good days and bad days of course but I'm still really really glad that I left him behind. I've had more piece of mind in 3 months than I've had in the 3 years we've been married. He thinks any day now I'm gonna go crawling back and try again! HE WISHES! <LOL> I'm going to have to work 2 jobs because I have nothing to furnish the new apartment I am getting on Thursday, and take care of a few little car problems before they keep me from getting back and forth to work at all. But at least I can sleep at night and not worry about him drunk and passing out with a lit cigarette in bed,
and killing us. Not worry about every time he goes out the door will he kill him-self or someone else? Not have to listen to the accusing of me messing around when all I ever did was work to help keep our head above water! Not have to
worry about the Federal Agents busting the doors down because he sells his pain pills to the worst idiots who will eventually take him down with them! And he's "too out of it" to think it will ever happen to him! It's just so sad. And the more I still try to talk to him about "WHY" I left...it doesn't register in his brain and I guess all I can do now is accept that and keep going on in the direction I have to go and that's "without him". He says he loves me, and wants me back.
But I don't hear, "I'll do whatever it takes to keep this marriage together". No,
NOT ONE TIME in 90 days! What does that tell me? There isn't going to be a reconciliation that's what! Divorce papers will be filed and final by late June/July
and then I will really feel free again. I guess I'll always wonder how he is and what he's doing...but at least I won't have to "WORRY" about it. Big difference
there!Well folks, I just wanted to touch base with those of you who know me.
I see a whole lot of new names here! That's a wonderful thing! It was such a Godsend for me to find this board when I did! I hope everyone receives the love and caring help I got from people who are really in the same boat or have been there too! But when it comes down to it........we have to make our own 
choices in life. I chose not to stay in an unhealthy enviroment. Life is too short 
and LOVE doesn't mean I have to allow someone to put my life in jeopardy! I will be in touch more now that I'll have my own place and my own computer!!!
I have  ALOT of back reading to do here!! Take care Ya'll!! Be Safe! Hugs,
Korinne  

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Welcome back (((Korinne)))

You sound really good!smile

"Life is too short and LOVE doesn't mean I have to allow someone to put my life in jeopardy!"

Amen.

Glad things are getting better for you!

Yours in Recovery,

David
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((korinne))

nice to hear from you!!!! like david said, you sound strong and full of life -- AWESOME! eating on a card table (for me) was much better than having my life be eaten by the turbulence of the A relationship. (((big hugs)))

with love
cj

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