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i bounced off the bed in the family room where i was watching tv, told him i recognized his part as the family martyer, and, as quick as a wink i had my coat on and the dog leashed , and , out the door i went for a brisk walk. but not before i heard him mumble......, ''well no, i didn't mean it that way. you can watch whatever you want on tv" [like i need permission] i didn't even bother to dignify that comment with a reply. while i was walking, i decided......, it is okay to be angry. i can't be a meally mouthed little mouse all the time. and, lately, i don't even want to be. something is happening to me. these are new feelings. sometimes i actually feel physically dizzy because it is all so new and i don't quite know how to handle these feelings. that is where ''giving it over'' comes in. i ask for "the wisdom to know the difference." and, remember there is a power out there somewhere greater than all of me and ALL of this . occassionally i forget that i need higher power help, but that lapse in memory is very brief. i am having a difficult time being around the people in my family who expect me to continue with past behavior.[ the quiet little one that doesn't say much] i don't like confrontations, but recently have been standing my ground on issues that are important to me. for example......., filthy jokes and bad language around children. mind your manners and show the child some respect. stuff like that. the other thing that i find hard is that somehow these people try to make me feel bad for calling them on their behavior. then i feel like saying, "right......, i am sober, the child is safe with me, i don't do drugs, i have a roof over my head, and i am the one that is wrong ??????"[something is not right with their thinking] anyway, i think this post is a cross between a vent and a release. these last few days have been difficult, but, i am getting stronger in me.
blessings to all who have taken the time to share in my recovery, jewely
I believe that it is ok to feel our emotions, that it is ok to say "I'm uncomfortable with this conversation, I would like to change the subject" I believe that is setting healthy boundaries.
It sounds to me like you are doing a good job of taking care of you, setting those boundaries and detaching from unhealthy situations when necessary.
Good for you.
Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
wow so cool!! I remember getting crap from the a's mom and family. I would say wait a minute, I work full time as a teacher, have money in the bank, my own home, nice vehicles, don't even cuss, my kids are great, I love the creator and I MADE him drink and lose everything???
It is good to stand up and take your own power. that is totally different than yelling and saying mean meaningless things.
Be proud of you accomplishments and the strong path you have made with alanon skills.
share ~ keep workin it 
your so worth it!!!
