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Hello to all of you…Hubby came back home late last night & couldn’t keep his word once more…he forgot his keys so he woke me up @ 1:30 am…I opened the door a little bit & saw him standing back to the wall with his head down… I knew how guilty he feels. I left to the room without any eye contact or a single word…I didn’t wake up on time to get ready for work this morning, I had a bit of resentment inside me but kept repeating "let go let God" and "I forgive you"…I kissed him and I left…maybe the kiss was not 100% from my heart but it opened a way to forgiveness…so I was kind of down the whole day and had an argue with a colleague…what she did was not right and I had the right to be angry…but I kept blaming myself…then I remembered that I am only a human and have feelings…trying to fly with my broken…so I deserve to give MYSELF too a second chance, I don’t have to do everything right over a night… recovery is in the process and I am doing good…so I will forgive myself and I will forgive the loved ones that had a share in what I feel today…Lots of loveHoney
"I had a bit of resentment inside me but kept repeating "let go let God" and "I forgive you"…I kissed him and I left…maybe the kiss was not 100% from my heart but it opened a way to forgiveness…"
"…but I kept blaming myself…then I remembered that I am only a human and have feelings…trying to fly with my broken…so I deserve to give MYSELF too a second chance, I don’t have to do everything right over a night… recovery is in the process and I am doing good…so I will forgive myself..."
I def believe u have to (for me I had to) forgive myself first b4 I COULD FORGIVE OTHERS... forgive me for loving other addicts, again & not kick myself about it; just know love is a gift that I might not be able to understand comp[letely & let go when & if I had to, to grow beyond certain levels to grow for myself.
I think it sucks for me being ACOA & having so many A's/Addicts in my family, like it's a curse in a way (but we all have our own tings to deal with). I'm acoa.
I think relationships are just a part of life, it's all a learning experience.
Recovery (just like life) is a process & each learning experience or step is one along the path of life for all of us. Sounds like ur doing well in your recovery ~ I've had the luxury (pain of growth) of Al-aNON for 23 yrs now & still feel like a bright green shiny newbie in my growth at times. Keep at it, only u can change yourself & there's a lot of power in that knowledge!
- a friend in recovery
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
