dearest family, first I will get this off my chest, that and the hay that went down there when I fed the horses... gads

I want to volunteer here very badly, but for some reason I am being forgotten. Done my best to give it to  hp, I know I cannot control anyone but me. I love the powers that be ,here.

It is not just here either. I have to listen to my sunday meetings on speaker phone as you know I cannot leave home much. I have asked them to please call me so i can hear. I asked the elders, I have called. Last week end I begged them to please no forget me.
they forgot me. shaking head.

I was going to rent my house to some people. First I  met them as she was going to rent my 5 acres across the road. Then they were interested in renting my house. A few days go by and they do not show up. The horses are there.

Well after 3 weeks of not getting a commitment and getting ready to move into my bunkhouse, I go over to feed their horses some carrots. OMG one of them is starving. They  have not provided water, they do not come and feed them. I brought the one here, fed him twice. Her husband came by to fix something for me. He saw I had the horse.

He went home and told her. she calls all mad. I tell her she must feed this horse or get it out of here to someone who will. she said someone would come the next day, no one came. then she was coming sat. no one came I called her and said I need a proposal from you as to what terms you may want on renting my house.

I had someone else interested. Well NO call, horse is still there.

Rented my home to this wonderful family who I know of, and I am blessed with them. the gave me first and last today.

I called the previous gal and said on their machine, I will not rent my house to you becuz i need people I can depend on. That the horse needs to be gone tomorrow or I am calling my vet friend and the sheriff.

I decided I am going to feed them tomorrow AND I am calling my vet friend and the sheriff first thing.

She would not feed is as it is not her horse she says. who frigging cares it is starving.

gads, BUT becuz I gave it to my hp. let go and let god, put it all in the creators hands, my hp, I was never sick about it all, cept the horse part.

I allowed myself to see red flags, did not feel desperate about renting even though I have a big mortgage.

I put in my first window alll by myself!!! it is level too. tomorrow I am putting in a big one, sealing my bunkroom up and putting my stuff in there. I will live in this one big room until I reroof the bathroom/laundry.

Am going to add a small livingroom/kitchen that looks out to the beautiful south view.
AND I am adding a loft for my bedroom!!!! I am super excited about that It will have a huge window to the east and south. no one can see in those windows.

Am doing it all myself. i will ask for help with the power. I have a box, just need to run wire around to outlets which I can do. Just need help with the start of it. Cannot remember how to do it.

I love to work with wood.

My pickup is going in tomorrow to get the new tranny and tune up. He will be every such a happy truck. He is a 78 chevy silverado shortbed. velvet inteior, feels like a caddy. so smooth, everything works too, it is a nice truck, it was my father in laws brand new, has had excellent care.

Back in the old days, the premo stuff was premo and stayed that way. not tin cans like now.

Hp is good to me. very good. It has been so rough.

All I know is I can depend on me, and hp. And a few wonderful friends.

I have learned more than I ever dreamed of in these rooms at MIP. Miracle after miracle.

I read about  your lives, just quickly. gotta move, build and feed....

love,debilyn